It all started with nothing , a boy with no fear of death nor with the will to live , who was always in a hurry , who liked to chase his dreams , who didn't cared about anything .
One who liked to chase death and wanted to see the end of all . One who fell in love so hard with someone who didn't even knew him . One who started to love someone so much that all the other things he desired were nothing infront of that one desire to belong to her .
At first sight it was nothing but admiration for a person , who seemed liked she has nothing to do with this world but even he didn't knew that how things will end up and he'll end up falling in love .
The More he saw her the more he was captivated by her . And before he even knew he imagined a life with her . Than with time , the time that was so easy to pass became like a burden when she wasn't around and the time that didn't used to pass , started passing as a river with nothing to hold back
What was this feeling ? What was it , he didn't knew It was something he never felt before in his life . A feeling of belonging , a feeling of relief a feeling filled with every emotion he could have thinked of , there was jealousy , there was patience , happiness , fear , sadness sometimes even anger , what was it ? One who used to wait for nothing was ready to wait a lifetime . And before he knew she became the most important person in his life , A COMPLETE STRANGER .
She was the only thought on his mind every day , every minute , every second all he could think of was her . And time passed and passed and passed , A whole one sided story that the other person didn't even knew . And than before he knew it every song was about her .What is this feeling why is she suddenly my everything , what is wrong with me , why the fear of death before belonging to her haunts me , why is it so scary to think of her with someone else , why is she a part of every story i can think of .
And Than the question he asked himself the question that really mattered , IS IT LOVE ? is it ? What really is love if it isn't this ?
Than 3 years passed by as nothing , was time what he needed or was time his enemy ?
He knew she deserved better , she really does , Can he really be with her ? He decided to become better but time was the biggest thorn in his way .But deep inside he thought if better he becomes , will he really end up with her . The time he will stop seeing her was near . But what could he do All he had was a heart that beats for none but her , but does his feelings really mattered to her ? Why would they ? Isn't it her own life ? Why would she choose someone like him ?
She was a blessing , she deserved all the happiness the world could offer , she was a sweet soul a kind one a soul that cared for others more than herself .
Before he knew it his world started revolving around her , The I in his life left it's meaning , every thing he could think of every dream he had it transitioned to we ( I and her ) and never An I lonely again . He wanted to see her succeed , to live her life with joy and full of happiness he wanted to be there with her but deep down he knew he didn't deserved her . Her happiness mattered the most to him and nobody can imagine how happy he gets when he sees her happy , sees her smiling , sees her enjoying the life that meant everything to him even without him being there .
There Was a constant burden on his heart that didn't seem to go away no matter what he did only when she was with him , his heart was at peace .
All he could do was hope , the only ally of his , and the only thing that gave him comfort "Hope" , The hope to maybe one day scream to the world that she belongs to him "nobody other but him" , hope to hold his hands and roam the world , hope to call her his . Hope to be with her in her happiest and saddest times , hope to be someone she could rely on , hope to be worthy of her love . He hoped he could be all these and it was it that kept him keep going .
