The girl above^^^ is Auriela. Just so you have a face to put with the name. :)
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Ugly. Fat. Worthless. I think of all of these words that people have called me, as I drag the sharp blade across my pale skin. After about ten pretty deep cuts, I stop and put the blade down.
I bandage up my wrists so my parents and brother won't see them, and wipe of the makeup that smeared all over my cheeks, as I cried.
As I walk out of the bathroom looking at the ground, I run into my blonde haired brother. "Hey, watch it!" He snaps. And I continue the walk to my bedroom.
That was normal. All Elliot cares about is his sluty girlfriend of the week. Yeah, week. I'm not even joking he gets a new one every week. They're all the same, big ass, big boobs, usually blonde.
Once I'm finally in the safe haven of my room, I get out my phone and text my best friend, Luke. Luke Robert Hemmings. He's been my best friend since kindergarten. He's always been there for me. Always. When my parents are fighting. When I'm being bullied. When I can't figure out the answer for my maths homework. Not that he's good at maths. He sucks at it actually. My point is, he's always there for me. No matter what.
Well that is unless his band needs him. Then the band comes first. Even though, he's known me longer than anyone in that band, it comes first.
I sigh, thinking about him going of on tour in a month. Will he be there for me then? No. The band's more important. The beautiful fans screaming his name, asking him to marry them, they're more important. Don't think I'm being selfish. I'm proud of him, really. I'm so very proud of him. I just wish he could be here. I mean, he is here now. But sometimes it feels like he isn't really here. Does that make since? Yeah, your right it doesn't.
From me: Hey, lukey! Can you come over? I text Luke.
And, only seconds later he responds with,
From Lukey😍😎: Yeah, be right over!! xx
I smile at his name in my contacts. He put the heart eyes emoji. I promise. I just didn't want to remove it because that's the way I look at him. With hearts as my eyes.
I heard someone tap on my window, and know that Luke is here. I walk over to the window, to see a smiling Luke staring through it at me. I open it and, he hops in.
"Hey, guess what? I've got to tell you something sit down." Luke announced. I do as told as told and sit on my bed.
"So...", he drags out. " You remember how I told you about this girl I like?" He questions. I nod, Secretly hoping that this is leading to him asking me out.
"Well..." He trails off. Leaving me in suspense, yet again. Yep, this is it. This, is where he says, 'Auri, I love you! I love you, with all my heart! Will you be my girlfriend?' And then I'll say, 'Of course, Luke! I've been waiting for you to, grow some balls and, ask that for years!' And then we'll kiss, like in a fairytale.
I'm interrupted from my amazing thoughts about what's about to happen with Luke, when he says, "I asked her out! And, she said yes!" He says, so loud I'm positive the neighbors can hear. However now I'm sure all they can here is the sound of my heart breaking in two.
Why did I do that? Why did I pretend that this was a fairytale? Girls like me don't get guys like him. It's unheard of.
A forced smile makes its way to my mouth. "I'm so happy for you!" I exclaim, trying not to let the tears fall, but I know I can't hold them in much longer.
The first tear falls, and then the second, then the third, now a stream of tears are falling from my bright blue orbs.
"Auriela, what's wrong? Luke asks, brining me into one of his famous hugs, I've received since I was five.
I eventually stop crying, and look at the ground. Knowing if I look into his gorgeous blue eyes I'll start all over again.
"Auri, what's wrong?" He asks, again, in a soft, deep, voice, that makes me melt.
"I-I'm just sad that your leaving soon." I lie. But only partially. I really am sad he's leaving. With him gone there will be no one to, flip off the people at school, who call me names. With him gone, there will be no one to comfort me when the things the bullies say get to my head. With him gone ther will be no one to assure me that my parents aren't going to get a divorce, when they're fighting. With him gon- Oh, you get it.
When he leaves, I'm just one short step closer to death.
He pulls me back into a hug, and whispers that 'it'll be ok', in my ear. For a while we just sit there holding each other, wishing that he didn't have to leave.
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