I used to be a shell.

Pearl.

'Playhouse put my favorite girt on,get down,get your crystal method on.'

I liked waking up to sad songs. I almost hadn't realized that it was 4 a.m again. I had been waking up at this time,for no reason. I guess waking up early made me feel good about myself. I had never felt good about myself come to think of it. I was tired,not tired of getting up at that hour. I was tired of waking up. I kept telling myself "Most teenagers go through this. It's normal." It wasn't normal to be this sad everyday.

My name is Elaine. I am 15 and in dire need of help. I think I need help anyway. I wrote this then times. They say when you say something five times it stays forever. When you say something ten times it goes away forever. I didn't feel the pain going anywhere. My friend Illa was sitting by our regular table. She'd been my only friend since i was in fifth grade. She's quite a character. She doesn't know who she is,or what she wants. One minute she's telling me how nice Allene looks,the next she's talking about how "HOT"  Veronica  Cedar looks. While we are speaking that vile name, Veronica Cedar is one of those people born into money. She thinks it makes her this splendid,over-the-top person,if anything it has made her even more bitter. She had the perfect life, Illa resented that but still thought she was "HOT." Illa is short for Priscilla.  She hates her name,she thinks it is a curse from the woman who gave birth to her. Illa lost her mom,to the open road. Her mom never wanted to have a child so she's been stuck with her father,and her father's many women. One week it's sandy,the next it's candy. Illa has short dark red hair,it's got at least one million curls. She leaves it in a man bun-esque thing. I forgot to tell you how I look,I am medium-sized and I have dark black hair.  My eyes are a blue/green colour. I don't really talk. Also this can't be a Teen Fic without me being in love so I will bring up Ty Astens. Ty is such a sweet guy,he has green eyes and brown hair with semi-red tips.  He plays the piano for my dance recitals.  I give him glances and he gives them right back. I don't remember what it was that drew me to him. This also can't be a teen fic without me falling in love with him... Well there's a problem. Danika is the problem. They are the definition of off-again/On-again. He need to notice someone amazing. //Pull out sign with 20 million lights that says 'ME'// I don't know whoooo could be the perfect girl for him i say s a walk down a red carpet staircase in a white ballgown and a glass of wine. Just kidding. I actually like wearing homemade dresses and shorts with my converse...  ANYWAY,It's generally just me and Illa and oh! Tiff. Tiff is a bisexual goblin. She talks to us about veronica and talks about us to veronica. It's okay because we don't tell her anything useful.  Tiff only does that because she asked me out and I said i don't float that goat. I meant it! But she assumed because i hang out with Illa that i am and i was lying. Sigh. Anyway those are those people.

Now let me tell you my story...................

In part two.

*** Thank you for reading! xxo This story isn't about me. Im just writing it to help those with anxiety and those who are scared of love and yeah! Any suggestions for stories would be greatly appreciated! You're lovely!!!******