August 5 2013
Pg. 1
Today was the day, the beginning of a new chapter. High school, I am excited to say the least. I was sick and tired of sitting in my room all day and all night nothing to do just in my own mind. Mom started smoking again I thought she really did quit when Cam died, but lately she has been stressed about work and I guess that's her only way to cope. It really bothers me the smell and the feeling of smoke seeping into my nostrils and throat. It's scary, I don't know why anyone would want to feel that. Mom told me I'll get it when I'm older, but I don't want to get it. Smoking is a killer. I love my mom but she is not a good mom, nor is she a good person. I saw her as a role model for most my life until, the beginning of 5th grade, she started to tell my I was gaining too much weight, that no boy would want me if I was fat and dumb, I wasn't good at math and I asked for help often but my mom would ridicule me, by calling me names a slurs. The feeling of safety was irregular in my home. school isn't much better, I still get called names and slurs, I don't have any friends and I get bullied all the time. But I'm hoping this year is different. I hope I make friends I hope the bullying stops or at least slows down.
