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1.

"Peter, I like you"

Finally I could feel comfortable, after practicing to myself in front of the mirror for many times.

When I was gonna step into the classroom, I was still thinking about which moment to confess, right after that lesson or when the school day was over.

However, my classmate Clara caught my arms immediately when seeing me:

"Linda, I heard that Peter and Julie were seen to have lunch together today. Are they a real couple now?"

I couldn't help a surprised expression on my face: "What?"

Clara complained: "Julie just has a nice face, not mentioning her mean personality. What is in Peter's mind now, he really likes her?"

I felt a down in my mood after two days preparing for the confession.

But I have a bad habit, it is that I won't stop until things don't allow me to go any further.

I tried to give out a smile, answering Clara: "Maybe they're just friend"

She nodded to my words: "You're Peter's deskmate, and have a good relationship with him, so I just wonder a bit for you"

I didn't reply her, and just came back to my seat silently.

Peter hadn't come back to the classroom yet.

I opened the book and tried to concentrate, but what was in my mind at that moment was only Clara's words.

2.

I didn't notice when the chair next to me got dragged out.

The scent of tobacco on Peter's shirt filled the air in my nose.

I clenched my fists under the table, trying my best to turn to him and give a confident look.

"Peter" - I called him.

It seemed that he was texting someone.

When he heard my voice, he turned off the smartphone, looking upon me and raising his eyebrows a bit.

He meant "Ask?"

"I..."

"Peter!" - A classmate ran to us, interrupting me.

I turned to look at my book again.

That classmate gave out a mischievous smile, asking: "I just heard some big rumors about our big brother Peter in the school"

Peter just gave him a slight attention: "Spit it out"

That classmate didn't get angry, instead asked directly:

"You and Julie... Are really a couple now?"

My heart immediately felt like being squeezed hard, I waited for his answer as if waiting for a judgement.

The wind blew outside the window, but it was nothing compared to the coldness in that teenager's voice.

"And? Impossible?" - Peter smiled gently, answering.

He indirectly admitted.

3.

I knew Peter had a "white moonlight", but that girl only concentrated on studying, she had no interest in love and even moved to a another school then.

I had a chance to observe the bored Peter during that time.

Once while we were having a self-studying lesson in the evening, he tilted his head a bit while asking me: