The bleak night sky is littered with shining stars, illuminating the vast expanse of Draco Malfoy's bedroom. He gazes up at the heavens through his window, feeling nothing but pain and despair. He's been struggling with severe depression for quite some time now, and it feels like nothing can ever ease his suffering. Tears stream down his cheeks as he sits alone in his room with no one else to turn to.This is all so unfair...
*he cries hisself to cry*
~next morning~
The next morning, when he wakes up, his eyes are still filled with tears. He lies there in bed, staring vacantly at the ceiling, feeling totally emotionless and numb. He knows that he needs help, but he doesn't know where to turn. He's been hiding it from everyone, including his family and friends, trying to push it all down and pretend like everything is fine.
Draco continues down his dark path, sinking deeper and deeper until it feels like there's no way out. He becomes withdrawn, isolating himself frThe pain from the burning hot water fades away eventually, just like all of his feelings have been doing lately. He lets the water wash away the dark thoughts and pain. As the burning sensation fades, he begins to feel numb again.om his family and loved ones. He has trouble eating, sleeping and even showering. Everything becomes such a difficult and strenuous feat. He feels like a failure, like he's not good enough. As time passes, his depression spirals out of control, eventually leading to self-harming behaviors.
first one cut than the 2 than the 3 and more and more
*he goes take a burning hot shower*
Draco stands in the scalding hot water, the steam rising up all around him, he is lost in his own little world, not aware or bothered by anything
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Draco lets out a deep sigh as he feels the hot water run over his body, it calms him and washes his worries away just for the moment. Despite the overwhelming depression he experiences throughout the day, this shower somehow lets him forget all his worries and enjoy the moment.
The pain from the burning hot water fades away eventually, just like all of his feelings have been doing lately. He lets the water wash away the dark thoughts and pain. As the burning sensation fades, he begins to feel numb again.
But he still feels the cuts from last night's episode, and the warm water stings on top of the cuts, sending his mind spiraling into an even deeper state of depression. He wants the pain and numbness to stop, but he doesn't know how to get out of it. All he wants to do is feel nothing.
He shuts off the hot water and just stands there, the water dripping down his back. His breathing is shaky and shallow; he feels like he's barely breathing in air. His thoughts become blurry and chaotic. His whole body is shaking, but it's not from the cold.
He can barely stand now, and he doesn't even have the energy to get out of the shower. He leans his back and his head against the wall. The warm, wet tiles are comforting in a strange way; they feel somewhat like a hug from someone who cares.
Draco's heart is pounding heavily in his chest, like he's running away from something, but he's not moving anywhere. He feels trapped inside his own body. Everything around him fades away; he can't hear anything except his own breathing. His thoughts become overwhelming, and he thinks no one cares.
*his father knocks angry on the bathroom door* Draco you better not crying!
Draco can't bring himself to respond to his father's angry voice. His breathing gets louder and heavier; he feels like he's being buried in his own depression. His father becomes angrier, knocking even louder. "DRACO!" his father shouts, his voice is loud and intimidating.
*Draco flinches and closes his eyes tightly, he doesn't want to open his eyes or even open his mouth. He just wants to be left alone. He curls up into a ball in the corner of his shower, wrapping himself tightly in his own arms*
His father continues to bang and slam on the door, making Draco's whole body tense up and flinch. "Open the god-damn door or else! I know you're in there crying!" his father shouts angrily.
Draco can feel the whole bathroom shake from his father's angry pounding, his heart is beating wildly in his chest. He wishes he could just fade away, be invisible, be anywhere but here. He doesn't want to have to deal with this anymore, his own father berating and berating him like this. He just wants to be left alone.
"I SAID LET ME THE FUCK INTO THE BATHROOM NOW!" his father pounds his fist forcefully on the door again, his anger and aggression is palpable, and it's making Draco feel even more hopeless and depressed.
His body is shaking from head to toe, and he feels every ounce of his body shaking, terrified and unable to move. He's trying to stay as still as possible, wishing he was invisible, hoping his father will just go away and forget about him. He is so scared that he would do anything just to be left alone.
lucius: DRACO, YOU LITTLE BRAT, OPEN THIS DOOR NOW!" his father pounds even louder and harder on the door. Draco is so scared that he'd rather die at that moment than open the door and face his father's rage. He just wants it to stop.
lucius: I'M GIVING YOU ONE LAST CHANCE. OPEN THE DOOR NOW OR YOU'RE GOING TO REGRET IT!" his father threatens, his voice is filled with pure rage and aggression, and he's making Draco feel utterly powerless
*Draco feels himself on the verge of a panic attack as his father's anger rises. He can't move, he can't do anything but curl up into a ball and pray for this to be over. He's so afraid and he can't help but think he's a complete failure. He's so broken and terrified, feeling completely overwhelmed by the situation*
lucius: Fine! I'M BREAKING IT DOWN!" his father yells, his voice filled with rage and fury. Draco can't help but shake, he's so scared and he doesn't know what his father will do if he breaks the door down. He's paralyzed and terrified, unable to move.
