Now that Krissy is here I've decided that I'd be a stay at home mom cause I wasnt about to trust anyone with mine and Jax's kids.
When I had talked it over with Jax he was all for it. he told me that he was more than happy to provide for us and nothing would be thrown up in my face about being the breadwinner or the only one working.
It took me some getting used to being a stay at home mom. since I was so used to going to work and having Gemma watch Abel while I manned the garage office or kept him close by.
but honestly, I prefer being a stay-at-home mom to working in the garage. not really having to worry about customers getting their ass hairs in a twist and thinking they can get away with mistreating you or talking to you like you're lower than dirt.
I am way much happier and more relaxed while being a stay-at-home mom
Yeah, I miss going to work with Jax but my job as mine and Jax's kids is way more important than anything else.
And the times what Jax can come home or does not make it home we make up for lost time.
But lately, I've been feeling like something is going on and that he's cheating on me, that I don't do it for him anymore that he wants or seeks pleasure and attention from another woman or woman.
I don't know how to bring it up to him so it can get situated and either forget if he's not cheating or seeking attention from another woman or more than one. Half the time when I get the courage or have what I want to say right at the front of my mind he never comes home.
Which is what has happened for the past three nights. and I am done with it, I must have answers before I start thinking the wrong things or conjuring up shit that isn't even happening.
