I know this isn't part of the book but I can't help but have this heavy feeling in my chest anymore. Why is it better to write out your emotions only knowing no one knows you in real life. Right? I sound crazy. I know I disappeared for a year or two for a reason. Got my laptop taken away and destroyed. The only reason why I wanted to write was because it was my deepest passion. But sadly living in a toxic Hispanic household is hard. I know some people are going through something worse than I am right now. I won't complain, hey at least my life didn't end at the age 13. Sadly tho idk.
Like I said being taken away from one parent that actually cares about you hurts, just to find out that the state says you can't stay with them bc they aren't your biological guardian. I wanna run away sooo badly from my mom. I just can't anymore, she is the reason why I wanna fucking leave this shitty world. Idc anymore even If it means to disappear from this world and to never wake up is my wish. I don't want to make it to 16, just to be treated like complete shit the rest of my life? No. I rather lay down and sleep. Wtf am I even doing with my life now, just rotting in bed all the time, not wanting to even go out. Shit is normal.
I hate hate how she makes it seem like what had happened between her and my father never happened. Like ik it's your first time living ik. Paying more attention to what ppl think abt u on the internet seem soooo much better than actually paying attention to her own daughter.
She will never change at all. Every one keeps on telling me she won't, and I still block that out thinking she will. How stupid and naive was I back then. Thinking she will, fine call me a ungrateful child and say so much things as saying how u would wanna kill me or want me dead is fine by me. But using it as an excuse to be the victim in every conversation. "She doesn't tell me anymore, how should I know.." or "she is old enough, I don't need to worry at all " "I regret having you" is crazyyyyy. lol. Am mentally unstable.
Phew phew ngl I want to have a dream or even for it to become reality, for my mom to give me a meaningful hug filled with motherly love. Just once before I do smth I might regret. If I do I want to apologize. Thx
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FanfictionThis world is cruel. Humans lead the merfolks to live in isolation. No research about merfolks has been found.Where did they go?Will they get together and make Peace.What will happen if two people from different worlds fall in love. Will they be abl...
