I love you, but I cant have you •J. H •

⚡"My Heart Aches"

"Mari have you seen my Zeppelin record?" I ask my best friend of 3 years.

"No, i havent Sarah, you ask me this every fucking day where one of your records are" she groans from the living room.

I live with my brothers band, Metallica. Mari is Kirk Hammetts sister, so she lives with us too. Cliff Burton lives with his girlfriend, Corrine. So its just me, my brother Lars, Mari, Kirk and James.

"Whatever, I bet James took it" I roll my eyes at her attitude.

I have known James since I was 9. Hes been my brothers best friend ever since we moved to America. When I first layed my eyes on him, I knew i liked him.

I walk out of my room to James room and knock on the door. Theres a bunch of posters on the door. He opens it.

"Yes Sarah?" He asks lightly, knowing what im going to ask already.

"Wheres my Zeppelin record?"

He pulls me into his room by my arm and closes the door behind us.

"On the shelf next to the books" He says and sits down on the bed.

It isnt odd for him to pull me into his room. Its normal. I like it, he doesnt mind it.

Theres always been some type of tension when i was with him alone. If my brother ever found out hed kill me. I like James, my heart aches for him. When im with him I feel calm, I feel happy. I think he likes me too.

"Thank you" I smile at him and grab my record off the shelf

"Hey wanna go get dinner for the others later with me? Its my turn to buy or cook" he asks with a soft smile

I walk over to him and look up at him "Sure, but can i choose?"

"Yes Sarah, you can choose" he says softly and kisses my cheek.

I walk out his bedroom blushing like always. He can make me flustered just by saying anything.

I walk back to my room and put my Zeppelin record in my crate and pull out my Misfits record. Just because i asked for my Zeppelin one back didnt mean i was listening to it.

James bought me the Misfits one when i turned 19, as my graduation and burthday gift. I listen to it so much i think its wearing out.

I hear the door creek open "Sarah Did i take kirks guitar picks?"

I look up and see Mari with a pissed off Kirk standing behind her. Shes looking at me with one of those 'lie for me' looks.

"She didnt take them kirk"

"You guys are fucking assholes, Mari gove me my guitar picks back i know you took them" Kirk says rolling his eyes "By the way James is almost ready to go so get ready"

He says and closes the door. I get up and put on some shoes and a flannel I found on the couch yesterday. I walk out of my room.

"Sarah, You ready?" James asks and i nod, we both head towards the front door, him reaching for my hand once were outside.

He opens the door to his truck helping me in and closing it for me. He gets in and starts driving.

"So whered you choose?" He asks putting his hand on my thigh.

"McDonald's" i blush

"Oh of course, youre so basic" he smiles and rubs my thigh then takes his hand off.

Its not abnormal for him to do stuff like that, I don't mind it and neither does he. He always does that stuff. Its not like he likes me, its in a close friends kind of way!

I look over at him when hes driving, his eyes on the road. His side profile has to be my favorite thing about his looks. Its just so perfect. Its been like that ever since we were little

My heart aches when he does that though, giving me these typa butterflies when hes just toyin with me. I hate it but at the same time i love it. And i know he doesnt mean to hurt me when he does it.