dear my everything (and more),
bitch you made it. you made it to 18, you make it to 2023, you made it to the tomorrow you didn't think you'd see.
HA I WIN I FUCKING CALLED IT I KNEW YOU WERE STRONG ENOUGH
YOUR DUMBASS WAS ALL DOUBTFUL AND SELF HATING WELL BING BANG BABOOM FUCKER MY LOVE OVERRULED YOU SO YOU OFFICIALLY OWE ME COTTON CANDY AND CUDDLES MWAHAHAHA
do you remember when you were in such a fucking low and you werent even sure you were gonna make it to new yrs
i found a screenshot of it in my photos
the date on the bottom says jan 1st, 2022
i kept telling you to hold on and you said you dont know how much longer you can and shit
well
look at you now, baby
angel thinking he ain't gonna survive a couple months and turns out, you were right. you didn't survive a couple of months. you survived a couple of months and a whole damn effing year.
i took the ss cuz i knew that whatever you were going thru was gonna pass and you were strong enough to make it and when it was over i was gonna show you it and say, "i told you, youd make it silly beautiful dummy".
and you did, gorgeous. you really did.
oh god the words im proud of you can't even begin to explain how I feel, but they're the next best thing, so my darling prince, I am so so fucking proud of you.
and now the next time you think "i cant do this anymore", i want you to see this and just remember, you're stronger than you think. okay? i love you so much.
anYwAyYyYy that set aside...
WOOHOOOOOOOO YOURE AN ADULT NOWWWWW YAYYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY
and knowing you, you're probably crying cuz you're a big softie hehe 🙃. but that's okay cuz you're pretty either way and ofc I'll always be here to wipe away your tears
(OMFG PART OF THAT SORTA RHYMED I SHOULD MAKE THAT INTO A SONG-)
/cOuGh CoUgH: lItTlE dO yOu KnOw-
buttt (I was bouta add only one extra letter t and then realised what I actually spelt lmfao 💀) i came up with this song for you but cuz of my sTeWpId ExAmS sMh and sTeWpId InDiAs AcRoSs ThE wHoLe AsS gLoBe SmH and my sTeWpId PaReNtAl GuArDiAnS eXiSt SmH i still havent learned how to play tHe sTeWpId MoDaFoOkInG gUiTaR sMh just so I can play for the love of my life 🙄 (bye the sass is killing me- 😭) I CANT FUCKING RECORD IT AND SEND IT TO YOU UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HOWEVER, here i present, alternative b; ill show u the first verse and chorus part of the song lyrics for now and then when i come meet u irl ill sing it for you in person WITH my guitar 🤠 IS THAT OK OMG I HOPE IT IS 🥺🥺🥺
and I hope it's yanno good enough for your high ass selena gomez standards 😭😭😭
💀 legit tho cuz I'm highkey freaking terrified you won't like it but ay oh well- i still hope you like ittt
OKAAAY
IM SO NERVOUS AH
READY??
OGAY
READY123GO
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savior named xavier by ari
feb 14th, a day i count down to
another year you made it through
you're an angel from above
so spread your wings and fly
ill catch you if you ever fall from the sky
emerald green eyes, a lopsided smile
troubled but he buries it inside
heavy is the head
that wears the crown
prince, you gotta keep standing proud
you, my love,
are a light, so bright, you burn
in the night like a thousand lanterns
you shine, set the sky on fire
you're my one and only
savior named xavier
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i love you, my savior
happiest of birthdays darling
im so proud of you.
- ari <3