[BL] Bite Your Fingertips

Little Crying Bag

Trigger Warning: Attempted self-harm

This time, Chu Yu only bit a small hole into his skin, but it was a bit deep. After loosening his bite, it took a while before it healed completely.

He saw Chu Yu, wrapped in a thin black coat one size larger, sitting on the heavy-duty motorcycle with his head hanging down.

Lu Shi pulled his collar up and raised his eyebrows. "Is this you reflecting?"

"I just... couldn't hold back."

The moment Chu Yu had released the handlebar, it was awfully irritable inside his body. He obviously didn't have much strength from head to toe, and his fingertips were still shaking with excitement. The desire to suck blood had rushed forth and he couldn't suppress it. When he'd bit down, he hadn't restrained himself as he used to.

Chu Yu quickly promised, "Next time I'll definitely be gentler!"

Before changing into the jacket and even during the daytime, Chu Yu had been nervous; he was worried that Lu Shi would show him a cold face. But now, he wasn't the least bit afraid, so much so that he even stretched out his hand to tug at the hem of Lu Shi's clothes while tilting his head upwards to emphasize, "Really!"

"Mn."

Lu Shi put his left hand into his pocket while his right hand drew Chu Yu's soaked bangs backwards, fully exposing his eyebrows. He lowered his head, leaned in, looked straight into Chu Yu's eyes, and asked in a low voice, "Still feeling sad?"

This was extremely invasive in a sense and a powerful action, but Chu Yu didn't dislike it at all when Lu Shi did it.

"I'm not sad anymore."

Chu Yu lowered his eyes, his fingers unconsciously fiddling with the metal zipper of Lu Shi's jacket. "I was just momentarily... unable to accept it."

Compared to when they were inside Lu Shi's bedroom, his tone was calm.

"Everyone around me believes that my mother spoils me immensely and buys me whatever I want. To make me happy at school, she even spent money to buy it. Moreover, she isn't as strict and demanding towards me like she is to my siblings. They all thought this way and also instilled this idea in me."

"So, I too used to think this was really the case."

"Even her indifference towards me, I tried to attribute it to her busy work. But where could there be so much busyness? She just doesn't care, or better yet, she's ignoring me."

Lu Shi listened quietly.

Chu Yu wrapped his body with the jacket he was wearing.

This clothing was from Lu Shi. It was a size larger and smelled a bit like him.

"My mother went to my brother and my sister's elementary, junior high, and university graduation ceremonies. At my graduation ceremonies, the one who occupied the seat was always Aunt Lan."

"I was scared before, so I deceived myself. But now that I think about it again, what is there to be afraid of? But I must admit—"

His hand holding Lu Shi's zipper tightened. He paused for a long time before speaking softly, "I must admit that she doesn't love me."

Having uttered it, it seemed that it wasn't as uncomfortable as he had imagined.

"My mother has the typical ruler, occupying-the-leading-position, thinking. That is, she'll only invest her attention and energy in capable and useful people. As for me, it's probably only because of our blood relationship that she's providing me with the best living environment and gives me endless money. She also built me a glass greenhouse in which she can obediently make me stay so I don't give her any trouble. You see, even her requirement for me is just to be healthy, happy, and safe so I wouldn't worry her."