𝑀𝑜𝑜𝓃𝒮𝓉𝓇𝓊𝒸𝓀. (𝙺𝚎𝚑𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚡𝙶𝚒𝚛𝚕)

꩜ 𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝟷.

  𝙹𝚊𝚗𝚞𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝟷𝚜𝚝, 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺.

Nova's POV.

       "Happy new years!" A girl cheered to me when I walked past her. I smiled and returned it as I walked around the party. Sand got in my sandals and my hair was in a messy bun but shit I was having a good time. Every new years, I throw a small 'get together' that ends up becoming a huge blowout. I have to be honest, I enjoy it every year.

            At one point when I found the group of people I was looking for, I put my drink in the air and did a little dance as they exhilarated and yelled. "Happy new years, my good friends." I said with a chortle. Honestly, this group assisted me with a lot of my crap. We met each other on mismatched time frames but we've been close for a little while now.

              There was Aalasia who was one of the most uninhibited girls I've met in my life. She was a 24 year old teacher who just so happens to sell weed on the side. Azul, who stood taller than a sky scrapper and he was a painter studying at our local art school. Liza, who also studied art. And Letitia, my 'situationship'.. because she's not actually my girlfriend but the way we treat and act around each other, she might as well be. We met fall of 2020 and haven't been able to separate ourselves since.

Situationships seem to always start from "Let's just go with the follow" but never knowing where the "flow" is going. Thus, you drown in emotions while tortured by ambiguity, uncertainty, amazing sex and confusion.

                Going over to the couch they were all sitting in, I plopped down on Letitia's lap while her hands wrapped around my waist. It felt edgy and foreign.. always have, always will. It nudged me so much of her.

     "This swimsuit is nice. It fits your skin tone." Letitia complemented me by whispering in my ear as I gaped down at her with a small smile. "Why thank you. I wore it just for you." My eyes lingered on hers for a moment before looking away.

             "Booooo. You guys need to get married already." Liza said after taking a sip of her drink. Rolling my eyes playfully, I couldn't succor but glare at her.

     Aalasia chuckled. "Been there, said that. Them hoes trippin."

                "How about y'all mind y'all's business." Letitia quiped causing Azul to groan thunderously. Welp, here we go. "Y'all can't even be civilized and grown." Azul protested. This is all they do. Go back and forth until I mention something that'll get everyone excited. Although they give me migraines and my hair is graying a lot faster than normal, I'm thankful for all of them.

          "Let's take a shot guys!" I say grabbing the bottle of Don Julio off the table that rested between us causing the group to hoot and holler.

       
When the party was over, I went to one of my treasured places. The nice little cozy spot right by the beach. Turning on my favorite playlist, I sat down in the sand and gazed up at the stars to rest in being content. Life has been treating me beautifully but it still feels off.. like somethings missing. My mind wandered to my childhood as I thought about new years 2014.

—

"I stole it from my mom's liquor cabinet. I doubt she'll notice it's gone." Kehlani informed as I looked at her crazy. We were doing new years how we do it every year. On my roof, enjoying the stars.

Squinting my eyes at the bottle , she did a small little dance while taking a shot. "You're crazy, you know that? If she finds out she's gonna fucking kill you." I proclaimed as she smacked her lips. She had this look on her face. The same look that leads to trouble each and every time.

"Don't look at me like that.." I started. "Novas being a pussy, novas being a pussy." Kehlani teased as I laughed grabbing the bottle and opened it up as the smell of tequila hit my nostrils. I poured some in my mouth and almost gagged before swallowing it. "Ugh that's disgusting." Kehlani watched me intently while I closed it and placed the liquor next to us.

"...I'm so fucking lucky." Lani stated while I leaned back on my elbows. A small smile crept on my face already knowing where this was going. "Why are you so lucky, Lani?" I teased as she shook her head. "Because if I'm not married by the age of 28, I'm marrying you." She started causing me to blush. "Even though your head is bigger than this roof... like huge." The joke finally came out as I smacked her arm.

—

Truth is, I miss her more than anything. It's been 8 years since we've seen each other and I still can't seem to detach my mind and feelings. I guess what they say about friendships is true.. that they come and go but never in a million years would I think it would apply to her.. to us.

Some memories never leave your bones; like salt in the sea they become apart of you. I wanna call her but i get sent to voicemail each and every time. Sometimes I wonder if I did something wrong or if she was just tired of the friendship.

               "I knew I'd find you here." A voice said from behind me as I shook my head with a chuckle.

    Letitia came next to me and sat down in the sand. "I'm a sea babe. Of course you'd find me here." Looking at the moon for a moment, I then looked over at the woman who had her hands wrapped around her knees.

         We sat in silence for a second until she decided to break it. "Every second with you is more beautiful than the palm trees, Nova." Letitia stated. I can't sit here and say my heart didn't skip a beat because it definitely did. "How can someone make everything so easy without trying, o?" Biting down on my bottom lip, i snaked my arms around her waist and let my chin rest on her shoulder. "You always know what to say and when to say it." I teased causing her to grin and look down at me.

       "You think so, mama?" She looked at my lips. Mm, here we go. Nodding my head lightly I felt almost lost in the moment so moved a little closer to place my lips against hers gently and softly. "Happy new years." I whispered in between kisses. I felt her smile against my lips while her hand came to the back of my neck to pull me deeper in the kiss.

After a couple of seconds, we pulled away as I laid my head on her shoulder. I finally felt like my life was going to be okay. Little did I know, everything was going to completely change again.