The Search For The Truth

Chapter 3: What Is Happening To Me

           ~Cerelia~

He stops talking and just looks me in my eyes. I never noticed what a pretty shade of green his eyes were.
"C-carver? What are you doing?" I mutter never breaking eye contact. He leans in closer to my face, which I didn't even know was possible.
"C-carver?" Before I can mutter anything else he leans down and kisses me.

*DOODALALOO DOODALALOO DOODALALOO*

Im jolted awake by my alarm clock. I got the worst sleep last night. Memories of yesterday filled my head always ending the same. I always wake up before the dream can progress any further. For which I am grateful, let it be known! I did not want any kisses to be exchanged yesterday.

That was just a weird... uhm, moment. There was nothing to it. What I can't seem to figure out is why it still haunts me. Last night I could barely focus on my homework and I kept droning out. And then it was all I dreamed about last night! What is happening to me?!

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-Axel-

All the sudden I notice her eyes and I stop talking. How have I never noticed how beautiful her eyes were. Sh*t I've never even noticed they were blue. She looks me back in my eyes and I feel a chill go down my spine.
"C-carver? What are you doing?" I wish she would quit saying that. The way her face furrows slightly, and her eyes look back on me. I need her to stop. Basorexia. I lean down closer to her face than before.
"C-carver?" Sh*t at least I can say I tried. I lean down and kiss her stopping her ramble that was definitely about to come. I wrap my arms around her torso and she wraps hers around my neck.

"AXEL GET UP THE BUS IS COMING IN TEN MINUTES!"

Sh*t I overslept again. I wish that stupid dream would just leave me alone. It ruined my sleep last night. I cant imagine what would've happened if I had actually kissed her. There's no way that would've ended well. Plus I don't like her. And I don't kiss people I don't like.

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Im on my way to do my daily annoyance to Cerelia. This has become routine at this point. Her eyes flicker to mine for a second and then she slams her locker and heads the other way. What the f*ck? I know she saw me. Oh well maybe she didn't?

The same thing happened in math class. I approached her and she turned her back to me and walked away. She avoided me like that all day, and I don't even know why.

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"Axel? Can you come into the kitchen please!" My mom calls. Sh*t I know that tone of voice. This is going to be about my grades. I don't know why they care I have all A's. I walk into the kitchen preparing for the worst.

"Axel I talked to your teacher today-"
"Why?"
"Because I just wanted to check up on how you were doing."
"You could've asked me."
"Yes but I wanted the truth."
"And you think I would've lied to you?"
"I wanted an outsiders perspective. Anyways she said you seemed distracted today. You know that school come first! What was on your mind?! We need to eliminate it so you can get back to your studies!"
"I wasn't distracted."
"Oh yeah? You got a 89 on your assignment. You call that focused?! I feel humiliated!"
"Mom you know some people's parents would be super proud if their kid got an 89 on an assignment, right?"
"Yeah but I know you can do better than that! If you want to go to Harvard like the rest of this family then you better-"
"Who said I wanted to go to Harvard?!"
"You don't have a choice! You have to continue the family legacy!"
"Mom I don't even care what school I go to! Plus I want to be a football player! My true passion is football! You know this! I've been playing football since I was 10!"
"Football isn't a job and I'm tired of you acting like it is! ITS JUST A STUPID HOBBY!"
"What do you call the players that make millions of dollars per game then?!"
"Don't raise your voice at me young man!"
"You raised your voice first!"
"Do not talk to me like that!"
"I'm just sticking up for myself!"
"Go to your room! I do so much for you trying to get you into Harvard so you don't end up a failure! But it's like you don't even care! If you don't get your act together you're going to end up a disappointment to the family and that's not what you want! Am I right?! I wish you could just be like your brothers!"

I stomp up the stairs and slam the door. I know that makes me sound like a child but I don't care! I don't know why she can't let me be! Just cause she and my dad, and my four older brothers went to Harvard doesn't mean I have to! I like football! And I'm good at it, I'm the captain of the team! And I'm smart! I am not a disappointment!

I put my AirPods in and zone out to my music. I feel the words going through my brain. Suddenly my mind is twirled into my dream again.

"C-carver?" Sh*t at least I can say I tried. I lean down and kiss her stopping her ramble that was definitely about to come. I wrap my arms around her torso and she wraps hers around my neck.

I rip my AirPod out of my ear and rest my face in my hands. Sh*t what is happening to me?!

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Hey guys! I had the worst writers block... again! I had no idea what to write😭! So this isn't my favorite chapter but I'm happy with it! Make sure you check out the lovely story "Cutie" by "kbpopkb"! She's such a great writer (and friend hehe) and I've written some parts in her story! So make sure you check it out!

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