"The real me"

I sat there wondering who am I am I really the person i pretend to be am I this persona I put up?  no I'm not I am just a fake I pretend to be happy but am? No I'm not I am numb but I can't show it  because people are needing me for help but why can't I help myself (she sat there looking at the sunset thinking deep in thought) "Sophia" called her friend named Emma (as soon as Sophia heard her name she put up her mask again and smiled look over to Emma) "hi Emma how are you I didn't notice you were there" Sophia said in a happy tone (Emma noticed that something was wrong with Sophia and asked) "hey Sophia are you ok you sound off" Emma said in a concerned voice " oh no I am fine just a bit tired" said in a happy voice Sophia put up " oh ok well what were you doing just now?" Emma asked curious " oh I am just watching the sunset" Sophia said still keeping her masks up " oh ok well I have to go home now but I will see you tomorrow" Emma said in a happy tone (as Emma left Sophia wondered) why can't my life be like her why can't I feel what she feels I want to feel happy I want to smile but I can't why "well time to go home huh" Sophia dose a sarcastically and numb (Sophia heads home and sees it is empty like always) "I'm home" Sophia said to no one

[I am going to add more chapters to this because I like this story if you guys like it pls let me know ow so I know if I should keep going also I am working the the frozen butterfly just been very busy and had no motivation but I will work on getting it updated]