Evermore [Carlisle Cullen]

Motherfucker.

Bella forcefully pulled me aside into another room. '' Ouch! Hey! '' i protested. '' if you're going to be a bitch, then dont bother being here '' bella raged at me. '' who the fuck do you think you're calling a bitch. '' i gave the most raging sas filled answer back, she needs to be reminded who her best friend was. '' you, Eleanor! YOU! '' she shouted and slapped me. i held her arm as carlisle and edward walked in. '' that was low bells. even for you. '' i was still holding her arm staring at her eyes. glaring daggers at her. i dropped her arm barging past her and out the door. '' El, Wait! '' bella called running after me.
i had managed to get halfway to the pathway infront of bellas porch before she reached me. '' El! im sorry! '' she pleaded. '' No! you know what im done! fucking done! Bella, I have been there for you since edward left! I have been there for you when everyone left! i have been there for you even when i was feeling like shit myself! i had been feeling so down, scared, alone! '' i watched the shocked, clueless smypathy form on bellas face. '' look at that, you diddnt even fucking know. i wonder why, well let me tell you bella. i felt a need to hide my emotions for you, to be strong for you and to be that perfect ray of sunshine i always am because you took up all the space for crying, and being emotional. Well i went through a month of depression. a month of an eating disorder. a month of only showing happiness to you because i diddnt want you to worry bella.'' i watched shock and sadness on all of their faces. '' None of you knew i felt like this? nice, awesome lets not think about Eleanor now then, she doesnt matter. her emotions dont mater!'' a lone tear slowly left a streak of black mascara down my face. i stared down at my feet accepting everything i just said. '' well. im heading home, if all of you are home i just wanna speak to rose and alice. please '' i looked at carlisle in request for rose and alice. even though they left i miss them so much, its not their fault. i just need to see those girls again.