The Touch

Prologue

The emotional turmoil I have been facing is unexplainable. I knew that I was capable of handling anyone or anything in any situation. I am the queen of my empire and there's nothing that can make me shiver at any point in life. I get what I want and if I don't, I make sure it doesn't exist in the world for anyone else to have.
I am capable of handling everything on my own and I don't "need" anyone.
However.......
Everything doesn't always turn out to be a "need". Sometimes it's the wish. The deep burried desire. And until him, I never knew of this desire so well. He is everything i couldn't have if I wanted....
But....he is everything i could have when I wished to.
This keen line of difference between 'want' and 'wish' is what every strong girl fascinates about. The masculine ability to maintain this difference is what , I would readily submit myself to.
He is everything i couldn't have imagined or expected to happen....in both senses... good or bad. Yes. He is 'happening'. I know nothing about him and yet I seem to know everything about him. He is the shadow who dances with me in the low light of the room, portraying the moving shadows of our body on the swinging curtains perfectly like the love story characters, and yet, as soon as the sun comes up, I can't get hold of him. He slips. His shadows vanishes. And the longing for the night awaits inside me.

I turn towards him and look at the peace in his expression. His face reads same as mine. The peace of being with "home" other than being in "home".
I take a deep breath and wrap my hand around his tight torso.

"Sometimes mistakes aren't a mistake, especially if you end up with the best twist or turnover of your life because of that one particular mistake," I say to him.

"Yes, squirrel. After all, if you hadn't left the window open that night. Nothing would have happened" he smiles at me.

I smile back at him and he immediately plants a kiss on my forehead.

Is this , what "peace" is defined as?
The feeling of calmness and anxiety mixed together?
The calmness of being with him and the anxiety of not knowing his existence , in the daylight?

I don't know... I honestly don't know.