Self Harming

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As I'm looking into the mirror I wonder who staring back, I don't know this person she's to fat to ugly. All the words the kids yell at me my parents tell me maybe there're right maybe I should die, I stare down at my blade and slide it across my wrist 1 cut 2,3,4,5 I start crying I can't do this any more I whisper. What happen to the little girl I use to be the one that didn't give a shit the one that didn't have to fight any more the one that could get love? I wash off my cuts and wrap them up....  I started self harming when I was 10 my mom died and I lost everything me and my dad were close until she came meaning my step mom she hates me she treats me like shit and then my dad started doing I lost him so what's needed they both started calling me names like "slut" "go kill yourself" "no one will ever love you" I started believing it myself it got hard at school soon the students stated calling me these names and the worse part is the teachers did nothing I mean NOTHING they just listened and sometimes laughed...  Cutting was the only thing that helped it took me to a place no one would understand to a place where I can let go of my anger and hurt..


                                                                                      Next day;
As I'm walking down stairs I skip breakfast once again, as I'm walking out my door I hear my step mother yell "By slut" I started crying I didn't notice where I was going I bump into someone and fall onto the grown I wipe my tears and hurried to say sorry I'm not ready as I look up I'm meet with beautiful green eyes I've never meet him before or seen him around. He's cute but he'll start bulling me too soon but who cares he looked so confused. I hurried up and walked away but then I was pulled back I started shaking bad "I-I-I-I'm sorry I d-d-didn't mean to run into you" "It's okay love what's wrong?" "Nothing, I got to go it's better if we don't talk at all" I say as I walk away well basically ran away.






                                               

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