I've never been so mad at myself. Things like this always happen though, so why do I get so angry with myself. Sometimes I end up blaming myself because I think I do everything wrong or I end up breaking it. It's absurd for an adult to blame herself for everything.
I tend to overthink things and that's why I blame myself for everything.
did I turn off the oven?
did I lock the back door?
did I turn off the sink?
did I even water the plants?
Funny how I think about that, even though I don't have a fucking garden.
There's lots of things I worry about and I just can't help myself. I believe everything is my fault when it really isn't. It's just a bad habit.
Anyways, about the mad thing. I get mad at myself a lot, and I do stuff that I don't mean to do intentionally, but it happens.
I met a boy and he got me pissed off. Talking about how playing music is better than seeing it live. Sure, playing music is great but seeing your idols is much more than great.
See the reason why I got angry was because some people might not be able to play instruments, whether it's personal or they might not be good at it. I'm good at anything so that's why I prefer listening to it.
He said in these exact words, "Playing music is like you being your idol. Imagine playing for thousands of people, and watch them sing along and shit. You have to become your idol and think in their point of view."
Then I realized that he was right.
I haven't been updating any stories for some reason and wrote it in like 5 minutes (sorry) so like enjoy and stuff. It also probably won't make sense rn but it will later hopefully
