Intentional love

Chapter 10

Chris POV

I wanted to run I wanted to scream but my silence felt deafening. Anger , betrayal, and why is what I felt. The one person that I trusted the most had flipped my world upside down and for what? I needed answers and now.

    Hitting one of the windows brought me out of my angry state. Help me God not to snap on my best friend Amen.

"why did you do it" i say not being able to look at her.

"i-i didn't want to chris you have to believe me" della says with tears building up in her eyes.

"but yet and still you still did it. i missed her first steps, her first time saying daddy, her birth and FOR WHAT. WHY DID I DESERVE THAT SHIT" i say why throwing a bowling ball at the wall.

"YOU DON'T GET IT DO YOU. WE DON'T FIT IN YOUR WORLD NEVER HAVE NEVER DID"

"how could you sit here and say that bullshit to me. no della Chrissy fits in my world it's you that never wanted to be in it. grow the fuck up and admit it" i say my tone laced with venom. if looks could kill both of us would be six feet under. I turned to walk out the room needing water when I heard the voice of someone i didn't recognize.

"who fucking cares anyway it's not like you wanted to be in Chrissy's life. if you did you would've been came and look for us but like the pussy you are you left Va and didn't care to come back"della says.

"you know what i'm real tired of you trying to victimize yourself. why do you act like the reason we don't talk is because of you" i say

" oh please womp womp woah is me. don't try to place the blame on me for something you did."

"you're sick you have to be sick"

" i'm sick i'm not the one who-"

" SHUT . THE . FUCK. UP" i say while gritting in her face. i was tired of her making me feel like a horrible person when it was her all along. she should've known why i never called her.

"you're so fucking stupid that you make yourself the victim just to make you feel better. you don't remember us having sex after that party. we were drunk" i say while scanning her eyes that read confusion.

"yes i remember we vowed to never do it again and never tell anyone"

"no no no don't. YOU vowed, YOU told no one. you took the one thing that felt sacred to me and you stomped all over it. i had to watch you be all lovey dovey with that bitch ass nigga while i was hurting. della you took my virginity , thought i lied about it, and got back with your ex. the same one you would come crying to me about. the same one that cheated on you with. so sorry that i didn't want to talk to someone who shattered my heart and didn't give a fuck about my feelings" i say before leaving the room.

I can't believe who this woman I'm looking at. It's almost like I'm looking at a ghost. Who is this Della and when can I get my bestfriend back. Right now I didn't even want my best friend back. I can feel myself becoming cold hearted. She's broken me again and again and again. When do I get to move on? When do I get to have a chance? Why do I have to still feel love for someone who has betrayed my trust on so many levels? Only God knows the answers and I'm ok with that. Sending up a quick prayer I walk back into the room seeing Della on the phone with someone.

"ok baby mommy will see you in a little bit be good for yaya and meme ok" she says

"ok mommy, is that daddy"chrissy says with her face in the camera making me giggle.

"yes baby girl back up so he can see your beautiful face" della says passing me the phone.

" HI DADDY" chrissy says gleaming with excitement