random shit probably all related to ghost

vent

i had a shit day and was super fucking upset because i found a bunch of pants i liked while shopping and i had to go a size up on a couple of them and i was so fucking defeated because i'm 5'7 and a size 16 in pants and nowhere has pants that i like that fit me and im so sick of it and my whole family is so food oriented and it's so upsetting bc im trying to have water only days but then my mom does a movie night w snacks and it's hard for me to say no then i finally came clean about not wanting to eat as much anymore and how i hate how food oriented my family is so she said she'd be mindful of that and we could start eating healthier and stuff then we went to my grandparents' and all they talked about was food and im so fucking sick of it and i texted my friend about it and they said "oh nooo" and they always are dismissive as fuck when i'm genuinely upset about stuff and it's just so frustrating like cmon man