For Us

"One bouquet of roses please" Taehyung places the order waiting for them to pack it. It's his husband's favourite. A small smile makes its way in his face as he caresses their wedding ring on his finger. 

They say love comes in various forms for him it came in the form of his darling, Jungkook. Jungkook and Taehyung met in college. A beautiful friendship that blossomed into an eternal love. Despite being the shy one between the two, it was Jungkook who first asked him for a date. It was the most lovely sight Taehyung would ever see in his life. Jungkook cornering him between the shelves of their library his boba eyes shines as his cheeks turn red with how elegantly he blushes. Fiddling with the hems of his sweater, teeth playing with his lip ring as he cutely asked Taehyung out on a date. He looked so beautiful and adorable that Taehyung couldn't help but kiss the living daylights out of him. Their first date remains as a cherry on top of the cake of their relationship. 

He can't express his love for his husband in words it is something beyond that. His Jungkookie came into his life like a dash of sunshine and made a home in his heart. 

Jungkook, his North Star guiding him through this life. Jungkook gave meaning to his life. And Taehyung will love his bun till his last breath and even after that.

"Here's your bouquet, hope the person you are buying it for likes it" the old lady says as she gives him the flowers. He gently smiles at the lady as he walks back to his car. He places the flowers carefully in the back seat and settles on the driver's seat and starts his car. 

The drive is about 15 minutes from his place but it feels too far. After what feels like an eternity he reaches his destination. He takes a moment inside his car before he descends the car. His palms are sweaty he feels nervous. It's been sometime since he saw his Kookie as he was out of town for work. He hopes his husband is not mad at him. He takes a deep breath to compose himself before he opens the back door to grab the flowers and a small picnic basket that he had prepared at home.

He walks down the lane, the path that has become his muscle memory in the past one year. He walks through the grass and right there he spots his husband of five years. 

His love. 

His Jungkookie, who is peacefully sleeping there. He goes closer and sits next to his husband. Surrounded by beautiful flowers his husband lies there in the middle like the most beautiful flower that he is. 

Jungkook was always passionate about flowers he could name almost every flower in this planet. Out of blue Jungkook would share some random facts about flowers to Taehyung and in moment like this Taehyung would appreciate his knowledge by kissing him to his heart's content. 

So Taehyung made sure to surround his husband with all his favourite flowers to keep him company. He clears the old and dried out flowers from the place and takes out a cloth to clean all the dust that cover the cement blanket that engulfs his husband. Now he could clearly see the engraving he made on his husband's tomb. 

'In the loving memory of my love, Kim Jeon Jungkook'

He takes the bouquet he brought and place it on top of his baby. "Happy anniversary love" he says as he runs his warm hands over the stone beneath which his husband lies. 

"I'm sorry baby couldn't meet you last month. Remember the project I told we were working on. It finally got approved love. I might be given a promotion this time. You should have been with me baby we could have celebrated at our home. But it's okay I will come here and we can still celebrate it baby." He lets his tears flow down his face freely. 

It's been more than a year since that terrible accident which took away his Jungkook away from him. He has been miserable since that accident. 

How can you live when your life is taken away from you. He spent endless nights in this exact place since that accident because how could he let his Jungkook be alone. He wants to be in the embrace of his husband even if it's something he will get only in the graveyard. 

He is trying to live now because Jungkook will not want to see him miserable. So he decided to live for both of them. So what if Jungkook is not with him physically, he will always be with him in his heart. Because Jungkook once said "Hyungie no matter what happens I will always be with you. I love you forever Taehyungie hyung. Kookie will always be with you, you can never get rid of me" and Taehyung will never let go him.

"Baby the house feels empty love. You know I couldn't sleep last night. It was too quiet I couldn't hear your cute snores. The bed is too big and cold Kookie" he chokes on his own tears as he speaks to his husband. He gently lays his head on his husband and continues to speak. " I miss you baby. I miss you touch, your warmth." He closes his eyes inhales the scent of the flowers around them. "Bam and tannie are also missing you. They keep looking at the door every time it rings. Just like me they are hoping to see you again baby" 

"Kookie I made your favourite choco chip cookies and see I even prepared a picnic basket for us" he smiles like a fool looking at the basket.

 "The weather is becoming cold I hope you stay warm baby. Next time I'll bring your favourite candles love" as he snuggles closer to the tomb he feels warm. As if Jungkook is cradling him in his chest. "Baby I'm feeling sleepy. Let me sleep with you for a while kookie" Taehyung mumbles as sleep takes over him.

After about an hour Taehyung wakes up. The sun has set now and the sky has gone dark. He gently places a kiss on top of the tomb. 

" It's getting dark love. I need to go pick up tan and bam from the pet care centre. I will bring them here next week, love. Until then sleep well kookie. Stay warm baby. Love you. I'll see you next week" Taehyung gets up dusting his pants and picks up the old flowers and the basket and makes his way to the car. 

Once he settles in the car, he opens his phone and the first thing he sees is their picture in his wallpaper. A picture where Jungkook is kissing his cheeks. He smiles and whispers to himself "until we meet again, I'll live for us Jungkookie."