The Dying Light

6

"You reckon they liked me?" I whispered as I looked at how Anna did her skin scare routine.

"I know they loved you" She smiled at me through the mirror.

As we were supposed to be together, we had to share a room and bed. Not that we minded, as we had previously shared a bed. And as part of our routine now, we also had a few chats in the bathroom as long as we both had our clothes on.

Anna's nan bathroom was almost like a shoe-sized box and bright blue. It has that scent that anyone would relate to a grandmother's house as well, which was odd as first.

"I'm just scared, you know" I stood up from the closed toilet to stand right behind Anna, leaning against a wall and with my hands crossed in my back.

"Sam Fender scared of an old lady and two adults? Who would have thought" She joked, making me roll my eyes playfully.

"It's your brother I'm actually concerned about" I informed. She furrowed her eyebrows as she applied what looked like the fifth serum in her cheeks.

"My brother? What do you mean?"

"He said that he's a fan, you know. And he knows about Ems-Emily. What if something makes the press and he sees it?" I said.

"You're not seeing anyone at the moment, are you?" I shook my head. "We'll think about it whenever that moment comes, Sam" For some reason, those simple words seemed to take some weight off my shoulders that I didn't even know I had.

Once we made it to the room, I took my time to go through every single picture hanging on the walls as most of them portrayed a really young Anna. My eyes carefully scanned every expression on her face, as if I needed to take in every detail of those memories that they had kept. Anna used that time to find some old vinyls and play some soft music, making sure that everyone was still awake so it didn't bother any of the family members.

"Want to dance?" I heard from behind as a slow song started echoing in the room. I turned around and smiled at Anna.

"Shouldn't I be the one asking that?" I said as I walked to her, my hands placed firmly in her waist.

"We live in a feminist society, I'm allowed to ask you for a dance, you stupid" She joked as her hands find their place in my broad shoulders.

We dance to the rhythm of the music, our eyes constantly on the other's eyes. Without noticing, our chests were touching.

"You know, if we actually were together, I would drop a line about us rehearsing our first dance in our wedding or something along those lines" I tried to joke. Anna chuckled before her eyes landed on my lips.

I knew this wasn't right. Not the right place nor the right time. I couldn't simply commit to her any kind of way even if my heart was screaming at me to go for it. I decided to actually listen to my brain this time. But Anna still leaned in and kissed me. With all the pain and regret in my body, I had to take a step back.

"Sorry, Anna it's just that I-" I begin explaining.

"No, I know I shouldn't have" She stopped the music and sat down at the edge of the bed, her face buried in her hands. "God, I'm so stupid"

"Hey" I said softly, kneeling down in front of her to try to take a look at her covered face. "I like you, I do" With those words, she separated her hands, allowing me to see her teary eyes. "The thing is, my mind is still stuck on Emily and I want to do this right, aye? Because you deserve someone who is fully committed to you" I used my thumb to wipe a tear that was falling down her neck. "But whenever I heal, I will let you know, okay?"

Anna nodded softly. "Hug at least?" I smiled and pulled her in a tight hug.

"I'm sorry, Anna. Not the right time" I whispered.

"I get it, don't be sorry"

Still, after a fight for the side of the bed, she snuggled closer to my chest as I let my hand tangle with hers.

"I like it here in Scotland" I said. "I would totally move here in the future"

"I like it here too. Maybe it's because I spent half of my life running around these fields but it feels like home" Anna confessed.

"When we get back, I seriously need to go to the studio to try to write some tunes. Fans are desperate and all they are getting is a couple of pictures here and there" I sighed into the dark room.

"Are you planning on touring or something this year?" She asked

"I have a few plans scattered here and there, but nothing too serious. I've been slacking off lately and I should really try to focus again on the music" I said. "I want you to meet the band, so it'd be cool if you could hang around the studio some time"

"But not from-"

"Monday to Friday during the mornings" I finished Anna's sentence. "I know your working schedule, you idiot" I heard a soft laughter coming fron her. "I'll try to be there as much as I can so you know, afternoons and weekends you're completely welcome to join" I offered.

"I can get you guys dinner if you need me to" She said.

"That's such a brilliant idea, actually. But it's on me, aye? You need to start saving for that apartment you wanted to buy in the coast"

"It's amazing how you remember all the unimportant details that I drop in daily conversations" I could tell that she was actually both impressed and touched by my words.

"Well, it's important for you so I guess I just write it down in some tiny piece of my head devoted to you" If she only knew all the things I remembered, such as her favourite song, flowers or perfume. The things you do when you're starting to fall really bad for someone.

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So, I've been absent, I know. I got like 30 chapters written but they need editing and I want to sort of write "filler" chapters in between to sort of develop the characters' thoughts and all that, and it's my weak point really, so I've been slacking off.

Anyways, I got tickets for Sam Fender's tour (yay!) and I had a few days off work and I used them to spend a few days in the North East and I came back wanting to write and spend time in this fic, so we'll see how that goes. 

Anyways (again), if you're enjoying this, a vote and a comment would be very much appreciated!