Hyunlix one shots

Smoked Away My Brain

I can't even think. I feel so alive but I feel dead at the same time... Did I smoke to much? Maybe it was the cocaine. My gums are numb. Maybe if I take another hit...

Sucking in the smoke, into my lungs. Just to feel anything else other than pain. I can feel it going down my throat and into my lungs, the smoke surrounding them until I cant inhale it anymore.

My pen starts blinking and I cough out the smoke. The room was already full of it. Only then I saw my two friends laughing together. And then I started thinking about him.

I was only smoking this much to forget about him. I feel nauseous. Im going to throw up. I get up quickly off the bed and run to the bathroom. As soon as my knees hit the ground I puked in the toilet.

I felt a hand touching my shoulder and I opened my eyes. I saw Minho and Han on either side of me. "...jin. Are you o..." I heard their voices for a moment, asking if im okay. But they were fading in and out.

"...i....his...bout... Felix?" Minho said sitting on the ground beside me. As soon as I heard his name I felt hot liquid coming out of my eyes and my head started pounding.

I felt it so clearly, like someone was actually banging on my head behind me. I think its my heart. I can feel it in my head, but my chest feel empty... Also heavy. Like my head. I cant barely keep myself up.

"Are you okay?" They ask again, which only makes me cry harder. And all the memories started flooding in.

Felix leaned on my shoulder and reached for my hand. And for the first time, i wasnt uncomfortable with it. I was never a physical affection person, but I loved this. Felix was okay.

....

"C'mon Hyunjin." Felix grabbed my hand smiling at me. His smile was so beautiful, I never wanted to look away from him. "Sh..." He started whispering. He was giggling quietly, pulling me into his room. His parents were asleep and didn't allow me to come over. He pulled me back with him until he hit a desk and pulled me down kissing me. He lets go of my hands to wrap his arms around my neck. He started smiling into the kiss until he pulled back and looked at me. I really couldn't look away from him.

...

"I love you, Hyunjin."
"I love you too, baby."

...

"Babe, stop! He wasn't doing anything!"

...

"I hate you."

"What?"

"You're so embarrassing."

"What is wrong with you?"

"You're the one going around with other people."

"I told you it was nothing."

"You're such a whore."

...

"I just love you."

"Get out."

...

The thoughts start drowning me. Thinking about him... Adding it to my thoughts. I cant do this alone.