[BL, MTL] Always in the Beta of Marriage First, Love Later (Quick Wear)

Chapter 44: Blind Beauty and Pinocchio (20)

　　The city received its second heavy snowfall since the beginning of winter.

　　The venue of the concert was actually near Zhong Zhen's home. The teacher was so considerate and worried that the despairing sheep would not be able to find their way home.

　　Shang Minshen held Zhong Zhen's hand, and they walked back through the snow, shaking their hands, like two childish children.

　　"So, when did you find out about the teacher's death?"

　　"About the second week after his death, I went to look for him in his ward, and the nurse arranged for me to sit beside his bed. The atmosphere in the room was particularly solemn at that time, and I could feel it."

　　There was a crunching sound of snow underfoot, and sheep were particularly sensitive to sounds.

　　"Their breathing, sobbing, and talking were intertwined in my ears, but I could only hear the teacher's breathing..." Zhong Zhen's voice was very soft, vibrating in the cold air, as if it was about to break. , "They don't let me get too close to the teacher, let alone touch him, for fear of infection... I don't know about the teacher's disease yet. If he was really that fragile, there wouldn't be so many people in the ward."

　　Shang Min smiled deeply, "I find that you always like to hide things in your heart and digest them slowly."

　　"Yes, I am like this," Zhong Zhen rubbed his hair helplessly, "Maybe it's because of my personality and nature."

　　"Then... try not to hide anything from me in the future, okay?" Shang Minshen grabbed Zhong Zhen's hand, his voice trembling slightly because of excitement or nervousness, "Actually, I have been worried about your mental health all day today. I'm broken, and I'm ready to stick with you. No matter what you say, I won't be angry or sad. Not only me, my parents and my grandfather, but also the teacher's daughter and his students, all of us Everyone is nervous about you, and we feel guilty and worried, fearing that you will be hit too hard and never recover."

　　"I'm sorry..." Zhong Zhen stopped, stretched out his hand, and waved it in the air.

　　Shang Minshen grabbed his other hand, "I'm not blaming you... Well, it's impossible to say that I don't blame you at all. We lied to you, and you also lied to us. It sounds like it's even. Yes, but none of us feel comfortable."

　　"So it's more my fault." Zhong Zhen said.

　　Shang Minshen squeezed his hand hard, as if to punish him, "I'm not looking for blame now, I just want to tell you that you don't have to be afraid of exposing your emotions, even if they are clueless and you don't want to face them at all. The right kind."

　　Zhong Zhen asked seriously: "Even if I don't know how to face it?"

　　"Well, even if you don't know how to face it, it makes sense to face it together. You are always very kind, considerate, and thoughtful, always digesting and understanding silently. If this continues, you will feel very tired , will also make those who really care about you feel that they are useless and fail to give you comfort when you need it most."

　　Zhong Zhen squeezed his hands and rubbed them together, and the cold air he exhaled continued to float upward.

　　"I'm sorry, I just don't want to face the fact that the teacher is gone."

　　He pretended that nothing happened, thinking that he could avoid the teacher's death and pretend that nothing happened--

　　Until just now, in the silent concert hall, Zhong Zhen finished playing and stood up to take the call, and a long-lost sound came from the speakers.