Checkmate: Game Over [GL]

Section 7

[A/N: Please do read the new character unlock as it will serve as a significant in this story.]

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Lydia's POV

A newly discovered feelings came into me as I interlock my eyes at the sight of Zack and Agatha who are just few steps away from me. Fortunately, it wasn't the jealously or anger building inside my soul, instead it was just pure happiness as I could see how Agatha's eyes shifted into blissful by the way she looks at her boyfriend.

I could tell it was the same... same as how she looks at me before. I guess maybe, I was happy for her.

I then took a glance on my hands, my gloves are kind of big so it doesn't fit my fingers perfectly but it was perfect as the chilly weather took over the cozy air. Zack was even helping Agatha wearing her gloves, but I was alone trying to fix mine not until Noah suddenly snatch away the gloves from me.

"You could have ask for my help, I was just behind you but you're too busy looking at somewhere else." He said as he let out a scoff while helping me wearing it.

I painted a faint smile. "Malaki na ako."

"I know, but that doesn't mean you should shoulder everything alone." He responded, but deep inside I knew it was a double meaning. "So stop staring at them and focus on your daughter." 

The guilt slowly consumed me.

"Sorry, I just couldn't help it. Pero alam mo yun feeling ko parang nasasanay nalang ako." I honestly says, my palm rested on my forehead. 

The fact that I've been feeling this ever since I read about the article seems like I'm slowly moving forward and getting at the near end. And I don't know if I should be happy knowing that there's still a lot of things that we could both offer but we still choose to end things ㅡ that's what we thought it would be the best for both of us.

But how? How could that certain thing could tell us that it was the right thing to do? Was it faith? Destiny? Our own decisions? What was the real answer that ruined us? Or maybe, maybe it was us who ruined us.

"Sometimes that's the only way for us to move on, yung paulit ulit tayong nasasaktan." He gave his idea, his hands were now inside his pocket and was also staring at Agatha and Zack. "And Attorney looks so happy with him, and I know you're happy too with Allister. Pero I also know that there's something deep inside of you na may kulang, I hope you can find it soon Lydia."

I hope so... Because what we had is real that is worth something to keep. That even if I wanted to hate Agatha for hurting me right now ㅡ I just can't, I can't even blame her. Because there was no us in between this chapter, not anymore.

It is not like she cheated, it is not like she betrayed me, but I do know that she was trying hard. Trying so hard to forget everything about us even if it means to use a person to forget about me. Maybe we are build different in other ways on how to cope and fix ourselves. That's why I can't bring myself to hate her.

"I will... I have to, I must do it even if it means to forget about her." I whispered thinly but I know he still heard it by the why he plastered a small smile on his lips. 

It does hurts.

Knowing that I have to forget about her her, knowing that not even knife slashing through my throat could ever bring me to blabber the words that I just stated, knowing that my words brought me more pain rather than Agatha crashing my soul and my heart.

"Tama nga si Zianna, you're slowly changing." He said.

Maybe I am, maybe I am changing into someone new that I needed to do this in order to let go of the things that should have remained in the past. Maybe, we both shouldn't test our limits once again because we both might get dried and tired from the same set up.