--Building a New life --Tech x Reader Bad Batch

Chapter 59 - Remembering what once was--

Now back aboard the Havoc Marauder your recovery was going smoothly, at least in the physical sense. Your ribs were healing well, according to Tech's medical diagnosis and your head had recovered from most of the physical trauma caused to it. You had noticed in your last shower that either from Tech's stitches, or from your force healing you had a small line along the left side of your forehead just under your hairline. This must have been the main point of impact when you had been slammed against the wall, and you tried not to dwell on how you got it.

You hadn't been feeling any migraines, but headaches would pass from time to time. But with Tech attentively observing you from a distance, and Omega assisting him, you were well cared for.

If there was one area that was considered a struggle it had been your mind. You were doing your best not to think about the situation or about the blood, the pain, and the fear you had felt. But out of all these things it was hardest not to think about what Hyena had said.

"You were supposed to die in that fire. ... I should have shot you when I had the chance".

Hyena had threatened your life, but him calling back to your time on Felucia had been even more impactful. As you were being kicked and wounded, your mind flicked back to the pain you had felt when they attacked your temple.

The fear was the same.

In just a few words this clone had connected those memories to this situation. With both memories combined every detail was painfully clear and crisp in your mind. How clearly you remembered David dying, the forest burning, the children screaming the sound of clones stomping through the ash and leaves. Now when you thought of your past you thought of Hyena attacking you, and when you were trying to think through your recent attack you thought of your past. It was a wound deeper than the gash in your head and you weren't even sure where to start unraveling it.

Tech had spoken before with you on Ord Mantell about facing your anxieties and fears. That by processing them and challenging them you would be able to move on. You thought you had been moving on from David quite well, and you weren't feeling as guilty lately. But now with what had happened you felt different. You still loved Tech, you still loved all of them... but now ... you felt vulnerable, and the only comfortable thing was to hide, becoming a recluse away from those ... possible dangers.

Tech, and the others, especially Rex, blame themselves for your condition even after Hyena's successful surgery. Wrecker naturally became uncharacteristically quiet around you, becoming even more of a gentle giant than his personality previously showed. Hunter seemed attentive but remained at a distance for quite some time being able to sense your growing anxieties any time he drew closer. Echo also remained distant but kept in touch by messaging you via the holopad. Rex was the only one who stayed away the guilt obvious in his dark eyes when you finally saw him days after your attack.

As the days went on, you separated from the Remora, on your way to Tatooine and later onto Savareen. You would spend a few days on each planet just to settle down and allow for recovery, but you did try to say your goodbyes before you departed. No matter how frightened you might be, you wanted to tell Rex and Echo goodbye. They were still your friends.

Now back to just Wrecker, Hunter, Tech and Omega all together on the Marauder you felt even more relaxed and like yourself. There was no anxiety of a random clone just walking on board, and all their voices were different enough from the standard clone 'tone' that it didn't remind you of Hyena. It had been a few weeks of recovery mostly sleeping and stretching and now you were walking about, keeping to yourself and occasionally doing chores when you had the energy. For the most part you just stayed in bed.