Poetry

It's hard

I love his laugh and I love his smile

And ever time I take a while

To remember the good and for get the bad

The memories flood my mind

The tears flood my eyes

I try to keep it in

But this is a secret I've told

I loved him

And it's hard

Hard to let go

When he's gone in a flash

I remember the times when we barely talked

Because I was simply too shy to speak to him

And even after the secret came out

I found it difficult to talk

Maybe because I was breathless

If I could go back

I would talk

I would speak everything on my mind

I wouldn't wait for him to tell me

I would lean over and whisper in his ear "I love you"

But I never did

And I can't now

If I could go back

I would have called him that night

I wouldn't have sent those texts

I still don't know what went wrong

But I do know

That I don't know

Anything

I don't know

What I want to know

I do know

That it's hard

Hard to get over

Someone I loved so much

Someone I thought would always be there for me

Someone who told me they loved me

Someone who I trusted with everything in me

Someone who is so sweet

So kind

So loving

So special

Someone who was gone with the blink of an eye

Because of this person

I cant go home

I want to hear him say

'it's all a joke, it will be okay'

A/N my awful attempt at poetry. Hope you kind of like it. I didn't even edit. I just let my mind control my fingers and my feelings came out.