Coincidence Or Love......???|| JJK FF

P A R T - 22

Jungkook and I were sitting watching Jimin and Sofie practice. Byeol eonnie left already as she was tired.

Jungkook and I were just exchanging glances at each other. We both were not saying anything. Just 1 more hour was left till we can get home. I just wish to go back to my room. Well basically it's not my room.

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I'm alone in this huge studio. I asked everyone to leave after they were done. I don't know what I'm thinking right now. But I just need to clear my mind which can happen while I'm dancing.

My leg is better now and I can do some practice before I leave. Which I don't think so I am anytime soon.

I practiced till 1 am. I'm exhausted. So much. I cried so much in between that my whole face is all red and my eyes are swollen.

"Why am I being like this?" I was confused..

"Why do I even care that he have a girlfriend?" I was in denial..

"Why does it hurt so bad?" I was... In love....

I am in love with a man who can't be mine.. Why does it always happen? A relation between an idol and their fan.. It's not easy.. It's very complicated than you can ever imagine.. It's full of emotion.. It's full of heartbreak.. It's full of love..

I should feel lucky and greatful to meet my idols like this or even lucky to have a chance to perform with them.. It's just why couldn't I keep my feelings or emotions in control? Why couldn't I stop being someone who fell for their idol when the first rule in this industry is not falling for your idols?

Is it just a phase? Or am I just obsessed? No I'm determined... Where I shouldn't be...

Being a fan isn't easy..
Being in love with your idols isn't easy..
Being..

And that's how many more tears started dripping from my eyes. But this time I couldn't control myself.. It was some 2 am in the morning and I was a crying mess. I sat on the floor and cried my heart out.

The pain in my heart was huge than the pain in my ankle. Except this was unbearing this time.

I don't know what's happening in my surrounding.. All I can hear rn is my soul crying inside..

I was crying and crying until I realized someone's head over my shoulder and hands back-hugging me. I felt safe.. This was the exact scent that was in my room yesterday.. I get it now.

He slept in the same bed with me.. But why?

I felt my sport bra getting wet.. Is he crying?

"Jungkook... " I whispered. Not in a state to even think what I'll say.

"Yes I am. Yes I am crying.. And don't you dare tell me to not when you were crying for hours. And I'm not leaving you. So bare with me.. " he said sobbing.

He and I both were crying without saying anything. Isn't it weird? Crying in each other's arms? But it's not at all. It feels safe tbh. It feels less burdened.

He tightens his grip behind me when he asks... "Do you want me to... Hug you?"

"But you are already?" I chuckled a little.

"Not like this.. " he lossens the grip and gets up. He stretch his arm in front of me. I get up and as soon as I do he envelopes me again.. But this felt something.. Something like love..

"Jungkoo-... "

"Shh... You smell like coffee you know that?" He said with the softest tone of his voice.