Uncertainty (JenLisa)

Guilt

Chapter VII

L A L I S A

The road was clear, and the night was so peaceful. The sound of tiny spikes on the wheels crunching through the road and the voice of the DJ's on the radio were the only sounds I heard for miles. I was focused on the road and the next thing I knew, I had already arrived at the place where I can have my freedom. After that dinner I immediately get out and drove away because I'm feeling suffocated. I'm done with my business with them. I only need to endure one year then I'm off the hook.

It was Friday night, and the place throbbed with the beat of the band. It was dark except for the glow that emanated from behind and the neon beer signs that hung from the walls.

"Yow Manobal! Long time no see," Jisoo handed me the beer. "So when is the wedding?" she giggles, leaned her back and cross her legs. Although Jisoo's visuals should be illegal, her mind works differently. She's a psycho.

"Tsk, it's MANOBAN dumbass! Fck off chicken." she throws some chips on me. I leaned my back and place my arms on top of my head. "I'm fckng tired."

"Why not you go on hiding too, like what your brother did."

"I don't wanna add more stress to my mother." she's been really hurt and stressed out lately because of what had happened.

"Hey!" Jisoo and I both looked at Bambam who is making his way to our table. "Your girlfriends are looking for you, Lisa. Almost got blasklisted here for starting a fight" He's laughing while saying that, then sat beside me. I looked at him confused.

"Who?"

"Euna and Hanna." he answered. I shrugged my shoulders and took a sip of the beer. I don't even remember.

"May I remind you, I am not taken by anyone, you know me Bammy. I fck and leave, no string attached."

"Yeah right." he chuckled and shook his head. "By the way Lis, I heard your father sent you another lady. What did you do this time?"

"It's crazy bro." I let out a deep heavy breath and laugh bitterly remembering what happened. "I handed her my gun and asked her to shoot her brain out, then pour a glass of wine on her head."

"What the fck!" Jisoo reacted violently. "Damn you pokpak! You murderer!" Then she started laughing her ass out. Her actions contradicts her words. "Is she alive?"

"Hell yeah, the gun was empty. I was just teasing her, trying to scare her away but she.." I drink the beer on my hand and massage my temple. "She really pulled the trigger. Stupid woman."

"The fck Manobal," I shot glared at her, she's always trying to get on my nerves everytime.

"Stop doing that brother." Bammy said in a serious face. "That's not who you are," I sigh again. I will never reveal what more I did to Jennie, they will kill me for sure.

"I felt guilty okay, haven't been home for a week,"

"If you are gulity, why not go home and apologize?" I shook my head and drink my beer. "Anyway, what's your plan?"

"You know that old man will never stop, so I agreed on marrying her, then after a year I'm out." he nod and did not ask again.

"So you gonna be a good girl for a year huh?" Jisoo smirked. I'm telling you she's not normal.

"You both know how fcked I am, and she's too good for me. I'll try to stay away from her as long as I can."

"Wow! So now you're running away from a woman? The Lalisa Manobal running away? That's crazy." Jisoo commented again and I just let it slide this time.

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After a few more bottles I decided to take this woman home who kept on staring at me in the bar. I drove to my apartment and when I parked the car she grabbed my neck and started kissing me.

We are both gasping for air after that long intense kiss.

"Let's get inside baby" she said so I rushed outside and pulled Sarah out of the car into my arms, grab her waist and kissed her again while walking inside.

I put the passcode on my door while still kissing her until it clicks. My lips crashing against hers in a searing kiss. We have lost ourselves in the heat of the moment. Sarah's hands roamed over my abdomen, feeling the muscles beneath my shirt.

My hands slid down Sarah's back, removing the hook on her brassier, slowly removing her clothes and pulling her closer as I deepened the kiss. Our breath mingled together, hot and heavy as we savored the taste of each other. Then I remember Jennie's face, the touch of her lips was different from all the girls I've been with before.

I lost my thoughts of Jennie's face when I feel the intensity of the moment, not paying attention to where we were going. Sarah's back hit the wall with a soft thud, sending a thrill of desire through her. My body pressed against her, molding to hers as I kissed her with a hunger.

But just as we were about to surrender completely to our body desires, a voice shattered the moment.

"Oh my gosh," We both froze, our eyes snapping open as we turned to see a figure standing in the kitchen. I reached the light switch to turn it on to see who is this person in my apratment.

"Ruby Jane, what are you doing here?!" I asked, trying to keep the irritation out of my voice.

"Oh ghad, I-I'm sorry, y-your mom droped me off here." I couldn't believe that my mom had managed to let her in and disrupt my intimate moment. I sighed, my anger dissipating at the sight of her apologetic expression and I picked up Sarah's clothes on the floor.

"I'll call you later, Sarah" I pushes her and throw her clothes outside and then closed the door. I heard her cursing me and shouting that she's not Sarah, but I'm not in the mood to even remember her name.

"I'm so sorry." Jennie said. I turned to face her. Her voice barely a whisper as she looked down, unable to meet my gaze. What the hell is my mother even thinking?

As I stood in front of her, seething with frustration. My heart was pounding against my chest, my face flushed with a mixture of anger because of the fact that she's in my private place and embarrassment that she had witness that thing.

"I can't believe mom let you in!" I exclaimed, her lips parting as if she was about to speak, but then she paused.

"I-I didn't know.. I'm so sorry." The air crackled with tension as we both stood in the middle of the kitchen, there was a moment of silence, filled only with the sound of her heavy breathing.

My expression softened slightly as I looked at her face once again, her chubby cheek was crimson. The most innocent face of a woman I have ever met. I took a deep breath, until I felt that my anger is fading.

Damn you Lisa, it's not her fault.

A wave of guilt washing over me, over and over again, and without thinking any further, I walked to her and grab her wrist and pull her out of my apartment. 

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