Lights Are Missing : beomjun/yeongyu ‼️

17.

Kai was punching Yeonjun gently as he was keeling over laughing. I was too stuck in my own head to have heard the joke Yeonjun even made, and if I was clear in the head I don't think I would've heard anything over the music.

Nali was standing there with them, smiling awkwardly as she was standing next to them laughing. I was in the same boat as her, awkwardly smiling because we didn't hear the joke.

Just as Kai was calming himself down, catching his breath and trying to fan his flushed face, I felt a hand on my shoulder. When I turned around I saw my sister, Taehyun following behind her.

"Hey." I didn't even get to say anything else before she wrapped her arms around me and squeezed me into a hug. I was completely taken aback. Why would she hug me so randomly unless something was wrong?

"You know I love you right?" I was panicked by her words. She never told me she loved me. What happened? What made her realize that she should say it to me so randomly?

"What?" I mumbled back as she kissed the top of my head.

She pulled away from me and smiled gently at me, "I love you, Beomgyu."

She loved me, I knew she did, but why was she saying it, such an irrelevant topic.

I tried to shake it off, even as she dropped her arms and turned to Taehyun, saying something to him. I tried to stop thinking about why she said that, all the possible reasons running through my head. She stayed close though. Taehyun did too.

Then, soon enough, Soobin and Aera met up with the group. We were all in one giant huddle like everyone else was. Nali, Kai, Soobin, Aera, Taehyun, Hiah, Yeonjun and I.

"It's nice to have everyone here!" Aera smiled brightly as he kept her arm wrapped around Soobin's arm. I felt a little queasy.

As much as I wanted to enjoy it, the party and the group of us together, I was feeling super uneasy. Maybe parties just weren't for me.

I turned to Yeonjun who was mid conversation with Kai and Soobin. They were leaning up against the counter together with Aera by Soobin's side as she scrolled through her phone, the other 3 chatting together by the table.

I started to tug on his sleeve to get his attention without interrupting the conversation completely. He knew what I was doing, because he reached his hand back and wrapped it around my waist to pull me closer. Maybe he thought that's what I wanted.

But I kept tugging as Soobin made a comment that made even Aera look up from her phone to laugh. I didn't laugh.

As Soobin looked over his shoulder at Aera to tend to her needs, Yeonjun decided to turn over and tend to mine, "What's wrong?"

"I wanna go home." The words fell from my lips like I was a weak little kid who just wanted a hug from mom. I kind of was.

"What? Home? Why? We've only been here for like 40 minutes."

It really made me realize how much of a buzzkill I was. We had been there for 40 minutes and I already ran off to hide in the bathroom and asked to go home. I had to just stick it out and stay for them all, "I know, I'm just kind of overwhelmed. Maybe I'm overreacting."

He nodded, "You are."

His sharp tone made me a little upset. Upset as in sad, not so mad. What happened to the gentle guy he was just a minute ago? He let go of my waist and used his elbow to kind of shove me away from him as he turned his attention back to Soobin who was waiting for them to continue their conversation.

I was in such shock by his actions that I genuinely couldn't even move my body. All I did was stare at him in complete shock. How could he be so insensitive? I mean, I did say 'maybe I'm overreacting' and I was so I mean he was kind of just telling me I was but maybe it was the way he said it that just rubbed me the wrong way.