He is perfect. I love him. He makes me wanna cry, scream, laugh, smile and squeal all at the same time.
Again, for the purposes of this I am going to refer to him as Lover boy <3
We used to talk every single day but as time went on we started to talk less and less and he seemed to lose interest in our conversations.
Lover boy has the most adorable smile I have ever seen and nothing will ever change my opinion on that. Today (12/3/24), he kissed me on the head and I think that was really cute but he kept telling me how red I looked. He gave me a hug too.
He is a confusing yet understanding person. He understands when you talk to him about certain subjects but sometimes he really confuses me.
He is my best friend and I don't want him to leave me so I made him promise me that he wouldn't. I know he will eventually but luckily that day isn't today.
His arms around me make me feel safe and although I don't believe it, I'd like to think that maybe he does love me but I do not deserve his love or any love at all.
OH DAMN I WAS SO FUCKING OUT OF IT WHEN I WROTE ALL THAT CUZ THATS HELLA DELULU. ITS LIKE 24/7/24 DAMNNN IVE CHANGED
still lowkey delulu for him tho
but after all this time he still frustrates me and im starting to realize some things about him that i clearly need to talk to him about.
But other than that, im still head over heels for lover boy. He deserves the world. He saved me too many times to count.
maybe i should actually like publish this one to see what yall think lmao
by yall im probably js referring to my singular friend that read the last one lol
