The Lamentations of an Empath

this wild darkness

Speakers are crying

Like a forest in the rain

I was so alone with my thoughts

And my pain

And the darkness closed

Like a mouth on a wire

And at night 

I'll never be free

In this darkness

Please light my way

I can't stand on my own anymore

I can't stand in the stain

Of the broken and poor

I can't break what I held

And it never was true

In the mirror what I said was a lie to you

And me

And everything I see

And everything I could

I tried so hard to be good

For myself

For you

For the hidden and divine

For everything

But I can fail just so many times

I can't stop when I feel like stopping

At 5 A.M.

Just cry, shoot, coping

A perfect life was enough for you

And ever enough to see me through

For all my lies that were spoken in ways

And the way we lived

As an affront to the days

It was an affront

To the things that we cared about

An affront

To everything we murdered in cold blood

Oh in this wild darkness

Please light my way