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Confusion

Bethanys pov:

I feel him tense up as I lean into his chest. His arms wrap around my back.
"I feel like I've known you forever." I say.
"Mutual feeling." he says.
I graze my hand along his jawline. He grabs it and puts it back on my side.
"What's wrong?" I say.
"Just not the time." he says.
"Oh ok." I roll over. I get up.
"Il go sleep on the couch." I say.
Derek shoots up.
"No, no I will." He says.
I sit on the bed.
"Ok." I whisper.
He looks at me then leaves the room.
I lay back in bed. What did I do. Did I turn him away from me? Am I replusing?
I couldn't sleep so I went downstairs to get water. I see Derek watching tv.
"I'm sorry if I rushed things." I said.
"Beth I just don't want to screw things up with you."
I smile a bit.
"Ok." I say.
I head upstairs.
"Night." I say.
"Sweet dreams." Derek says.
Next morning:
I wake up to the smell of bacon. I go to my,bathroom and throw my hair in a ponytail. I put on some perfume and head downstairs.
"Hey." Derek says.
"Hey." I say.
We eat at the table when I see,my mom pull into the driveway.
"Hey mom." I say.
"Hey sweetie." Tammy says.
"How's dad." I ask.
"He's doing worse." she says with exhaustion.
"I'm going up there." I say rushing upstairs.
I throw on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. I come downstairs.
Derek is talking to my mom. He gives her a hug and we head to the hospital.
5 hours later.
It's around 7pm. I'm laying on the couch in my dad's room. He's asleep. Derek is in the chair across from me. He is staring at me not breaking eye contact. I hear my dad mumble. I run up to him and so does my mom.
"Dad." I say.
"Hey sweetie." He says.
"I love you." I say.
"I love you to Bethany." he says. We talk for awhile.
"Dad I want you to meet Derek." I say.
"Hello Derek." my dad says.
"Hello sir." Derek says.
"Bethany can I have a minute alone with Derek." my dad asked.
"Sure." I say and me and my mom went to get coffee. We came back and my dad was asleep. I curl up on the couch.
"What did he say to you." I asked Derek.
"To keep you safe." he says.
I smile.
All of a sudden the heart monitor Goes to a straight line.
"Dad!" I scream. I rush to his side. My mom grabs his hand. Nurses and doctors rush in.
"Help him." I scream to the doctor.
"I'm sorry your going to have to leave." the doctor says. I kiss my dad's cheek and won't let go,of his hand.
"Miss please leave we need room." the doctor says. Tammy looks at Derek and Derek comes over and puts his arms around my waist pulling me out of the room.
"Daddy!!" I scream. We get in the hall way and I sink to the floor crying. Derek hovers over me stroking my back.
"Beth im so sorry." He says. We sit in the hallway Dereks arms around me.
My mom walks out.
"Beth I'm so sorry he's gone." Tammy says crying.
I cry. Derek holds me.
"I'm sorry." Derek says to Tammy.
I go in with my mom for one last goodbye. My mom stays over night and me and Derek go home. He helps me to my room. I start crying. He cuddles me and I don't let go.
"Shhhh." Derek says rubbing my,back.
I finnaly fall asleep with Derek humming in my ear.