Lux - one direction - book 2

FIGHT

Kelsie's p.o.v.

I slam the door shut angrily.

I lock the door, the stand there for a moment.

How could he say all those things?

He's right though, he is right on most of those things.

I slide down the floor onto the ground

And try to calm my beating heart.

I can hear my blood pressure in my ears; feel the pulsing in my neck.

I close my eyes for a moment.

And just think

And suddenly I feel peace full.

An odd kind of peaceful, although I don't over think it, I like this feeling too much

And my thoughts are the only thing in my mind.

Images of the way Nialls face was so red, and his eyes so betrayed and angry.

Then I flash back to when I was in school, and was so happy, before any of this. Before I knew about one direction

Or Lou, or lux, or Madiee.

Madiee's probably angry.

Everyone probably is.

I did lie to them all.

They know nothing.

Why can't I happy?

Why am I so dramatic?

Why am I such a failure?

Why did I have to get diabetes?

Why did niall have to get mad?

Why didn't I just ignore what he said, he didn't mean it in that way.

Yet I just wanted to pick a fight and get hurt didn't I?

Why was I such a hypocrite?

I take a deep breath... or I don't feel it.

What?

I don't feel like I'm breathing

I can't open my eyes.

I feel like I'm shaking.

I can't feel my fingertips, and my body feels tingly

I try to blink away the fog, blurriness.

What fog, what blurriness, I can't open my eyes

What's... going...on?

'Kelsie!'

My eyes shoot open.

My head bangs, worse, not cause the hangover though, I can tell

'Kelsie wake up'

My head spins as I try to focus.

Lou is above me.

I can see that.

Wait, wasn't my door locked just a second ago

My ears are ringing, and cloudy.

But I hear her calling my name

I'm numb, but I feel her shaking me, it's like a small pinch.

'Kelsie!' my hearing clears out better, al

I see her better, and can focus.

I can feel her skin on my arm, sweaty clammy.