𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝'𝐬 𝐛𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐚𝐧 | 𝐬𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐰𝐨𝐧

S2:12 - "We'll be okay."

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A week had passed since Sunghoon sang Jungwon to sleep, and the dreams would still occur. Every night, every nap, every daydream. Jungwon especially couldn't escape them. It was like every time he closed his eyes he was met with that narcissistic smirk.

These constant dreams made him stray further away from his boyfriend, the one he should've been dreaming of in the first place. Jungwon wasn't stupid, he knew that there was a high probability that he had a thing for Sunghoon. He just didn't know how to finally confess his feelings to the both of them. He felt horrible.

He felt as though he shouldn't have ever agreed to Heeseung courting him, he should've never agreed to getting with him. What was he thinking that day? What had he eaten? How was he that blind? Did he only agree because he felt pity? He was stressed, worried, and felt sick as he wrote down notes from that day's lesson.

The male was in history, sitting all alone in the back of the classroom. He used to love his seat and how away from everyone else it was, but now he hated it.

He could see everyone and everything. All the groups of friends laughing together and the couples giggling whilst in each other's presence. He was jealous. He wished he had that with someone, with him. It saddened him; his thoughts. He felt horrible for Heeseung. He had led him on for so long just to come to the conclusion that he liked someone else.

Jungwon felt like a jerk, a player, someone who didn't deserve what they were given. Heeseung was a sweet guy but it wasn't enough to make his heart palpitate how it did when Sunghoon even just smiled at him.

He knew he'd have to tell someone soon, and he would. He couldn't keep this hidden for much longer. He felt as if he'd burst if he didn't. Jungwon was a terrible secret keeper when it came to himself, both a blessing and a curse.

He let out a small sigh when the teacher dismissed the class to their next class. Jungwon had planned to skip along with the only three people he spoke to at his school so he made his way to the old art room; a new hangout the males had just recently discovered.

When he got there he saw that Sunoo was already sitting in one of the seats in a corner of the room.

"They're bailing on us." The older stated as he typed something on his phone.

"What do you mean?" Jungwon asked with a small frown as he went to sit down next to the other.

"I dunno what happened. Ni-ki just texted me saying his parents wanted him at home, and Heeseung hyung... I think you already know where he is," The ravenette told the younger.

Jungwon knew what he was referencing to in this last sentence. He knew that Heeseung was with Ni-ki. It's not like there was anything wrong with him hanging out with his friend, but Jungwon knew that that wasn't just all that was going on between the two. Suddenly he realized it. That pit of confusion and slight hurt had all gone away. He knew what was going on.

Heeseung had just about abandoned Jungwon. Although it was the younger of the two's fault that this happened, the older didn't make it much better, and Jungwon somewhat understood him. He did deserve to be one of Heeseung's lower priorities. After all, he had done the same to him.

The cat-eyed male had a feeling in the bottom of his stomach that his boyfriend didn't love him the way lovers do. He felt it at the start of their relationship but no longer.