He looked my way and our eyes locked. A shiver went down my spine. I could feel my cheeks heating up because of the intensity of his eyes. He still had that effect on me. I quickly averted my gaze and started looking outside the window.
He and his friends took their seats and the bus started.
"Are you alright?" Felix asked me.
"No." I answered truthfully.
"I can't believe that bastard had the audacity to still look you in the eye after what he did to you."
"Let's just drop this topic, I am sleepy." I said, ending the conversation.
Felix nodded hesitantly as I leaned back and closed my eyes, pretending to sleep.
Back in 10th grade, I used to be a very shy kid, I still am, but back then I never knew how to defend myself from bullies. I was used to being stepped over again and again by everyone. I don't know if it was because my low self-esteem or because of my wish to avoid trouble, but I never seemed to fightback.
But one day everything changed. The bullies had cornered me into the janitor's closet. I remember closing my eyes, waiting for the blow to come, but it never came. I remember slowly opening my eyes only to find out The Lee Minho standing infront of me.
Lee Minho, the infamous heartbreaker of my school, was there standing infront of me, shielding me. He had fought off the bullies for me. After turning back he had offered me his hand with a small smile on his face, his beautiful eyes sparkling. I swear to god I had felt butterflies in my stomach.
From that day on, nobody had dared to bother me. Everybody knew that bothering me meant challenging him. Minho's family was rich. He was the first born of the Chief of Police Department and was undeniably handsome, naturally, everybody was either afraid of him or absolutely smitten by him.
I used to wonder, why did he care about me?
He would always sit with me during lunch, accompany me to my classroom, buy me snacks, talk to me even if I refused to respond, and never ever left me alone.
His friends- Hwang Hyunjin, Kim Seungmim and Seo Changbin, all of them were party animals, they would always insist him to join them but Minho would never leave my side.
After a few days, he had confessed his feelings and no matter how much I tried, I could never deny the fact that he was the only one that was capable of making my heart skip a beat. So, I had accepted him without a sceond thought.
Minho was the best boyfriend anyone could ask for. He was sweet, caring, attentive and supporting.
We had developed a very cute thing of our own after some time. Everytime I would be upset or we were parting our ways, I would ask him to "say something" and he would always reply with an "I love you" which was capable of instantly bringing a smile to my face.
I laughed quietly to myself, remembering those stupid moments.
We used to be happy. I was happy, happier than I had ever been. I used to feel I could do anything if I had Minho by my side but I guess happiness just wasn't for me.
Everything came crashing down after that.
"-an? Han! Why are you crying? Are you alright?"
That's when I realized that tears had started to pour down my cheeks.
"Something just went into my eyes. Don't worry felix." I assured him.
"Okayy" Felix said eventhough he still wasn't convinced.
I looked around the bus to see what everyone was doing as I was bored and ended up meeting the eyes that I once used to adore so much.
I stared at him and he stared back at me. I still love him. I knew that very well. I could never imagine being with anyone else but him. He broke my heart, but I still love him with all the broken pieces.
But I hated him. I hated him so much because of what he did to me. I hated him so much that I wanted to pierce his heart using a blade and kiss him to muffle his screams. I wanted to gouge out his eyes and preserve them so they could only look at me, his beautiful eyes were only for me. I wanted to cut out the same tongue that used to flirt with me. I hated him so damn much that I wanted to strip him naked and burn his hands that used to touch me all the while making my marks on his neck, claming him as mine, making sure he never leaves.
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