HONEY TRAP

Understand me.

"Tzu..I wanted to ask you something.." I found my courage to mutter as I watched Tzuyu read her book on the e bench next to me.
"Hmm, what is it unnie?" She asked, still not looking away from her book.
I could feel my hands getting all sweaty and all of a sudden my new found courage slipped away as I contemplated if I should say it or not.
"What am I to you..?" My question made her put her book away as she paused for a split second before turning to look at me with a calm smile on her lips.

"What do you mean? You're my childhood best friend." Tzuyu answered simply but for some reason it wasn't good enough for me.

"Tzuyu, best friends don't kiss each other you know that." I argued and the girl chuckled before grabbing my hand and wordlessly pulling me along with her untill we were away from other students, in a , not so agglomerated spot where it wasn't so easy for people to spot us before she pressed me against the wall, her slim body firm against mine as she kissed me .
Everything happened so fast I could barely process it so I gasped without meaning to, giving her the occasion to slide her tongue past my lips, carefully swirling it around mine and gradually making me careless about being seen and more about wanting her.
Why was she like this?
Why does she make me feel this way ? It wasn't normal.

Tzuyu's soft yet heavy breathing against my lips made me look into her eyes which were already burrowed deep into mine as she let out a soft moan, making me turn complete red.

"Wh- why are you making that sound-"
"Y-your hand-"

I downed at her words before looking down only to see I've been pretty much groping her ass the entire time through her uniform's skirt.
It just kept getting more embarrassing it seems .
I quickly pulled my hand away but Tzuyu didn't let me leave yet, holding my hands firmly as she smiled at me.
That teasing smile of hers.

"Stop worrying about kisses so much. I don't. It's Normal between girls ." The girl said before pecking my lips and taking her leave exactly when the bell started ringing as I just stayed frozen in place.

Tzuyu didn't think kissing was weird.. so was I the weird one?
She has been touchy with me for as long as I know her, was I the lustful one?
She sees me as a friend, but why does that feel so unsatisfying? I asked Tzuyu what am I to her and she answered, but what is she to me?

All these questions didn't give me any peace and once again I found myself walking home, hand in hand with Jungkook.
My boyfriend.
Who decided to break the silence with a gentle squeeze to my hand.
"You seem to have so many worries..I wish I could take them off your shoulders so you can be happy." He said, and I looked into his eyes , but the pure honesty in them made me even more restless.
He was genuine.
He was such a lovely guy , he was just my type too, I've had a crush on him for such long time and now we are together , why?
Why do I feel so unsatisfied?

"Don't worry too much about it, I just have some misunderstandings with-"
"Tzuyu?" He cut me off and the simple mention of her name made my heart beat faster.
Why?
Why?
Why?

"H-..how did you know ..?" Jungkook sighed softly as he smiled a little. But his smile seemed so disappointed.
"You talk about Tzuyu every time we're together and you spend a lot of time with her..I just figured out.." he said and I felt my throat become dry with guilt.

I haven't even realized that.
I must have made him feel like shit.

"Jungkook..let's go on a date tomorrow okay? I want to actually get to be alone with you." My words made his face light up with both surprise and happiness as he looked at me.
"Let's start this again, better this time." I added and he quickly embraced me and I hugged him back, closing eyes as I looked for comfort in his strong arms.
And even tho I found some, it was never enough.