Why Am I Never Enough?

part 2 : the end of beginning

Emma's dairy's POV

[ October 24th, 2023 ]

The first day of my class in my university, I have no friends cuz I'm just such an introvert person, not really good at socializing and also at making friends. I literally did everything alone but I enjoyed it.

A week passed, after class ended, I went to the library to look for a book that I needed. Never expected if that day was the best day of my life. Cuz why not? Coincidentally, when I was walking while reading a book, I, accidentally bumped into a girl with blonde hair who had such beautiful light brown eyes. And that was when I met her for the first time and we became close friends. Her name is Emily, but I usually call her Emmy. And who would have thought that we were from the same class?

Until then, everywhere and anywhere, we were always together. We've shared our life together, we always be there for each other especially when we were at the lowest. And that, she's definitely the best gift of God's I've ever got.

(Emily's POV : The way my heart melted and touched. I've never thought that I meant a lot for her. It's really heartwarming )

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[ January 24th, 2024 ]

Time moves in the blink of an eye, today was the day when I fight with my mind. I started to worried about my friendship with Emmy ever since there was a new funny girl in our class named Laura that painted Emmy's life more colorful than I did. And she, began to ignoring me and made me feel left out. Even so, I can't forbid her from being friends with anyone.

Well, everyone likes her, anyway. But I don't. My instinct says not to trusting her at all, I suspect she's a bit two-faced. And BANG!! I was wrong about her, she's not a bit, but a BIG two-faced. When I was going to the canteen by myself, by a twist of fate, I saw her walked infront of me, and I coincidentally heard her talking to oneself "I love David so much, I need to take him away from Emily." She uttered.

I got astonished, maybe even baffled. How could I let my own best friend close with a kind of person like her. "What a jerk!" I yelled at her and immediately confronted her right then and there. She was stunned at first, but she had no fear, she's wild. She threatened me not to tell anything to Emmy or I will be the reason she is killed.

Up to that point, all I can do to protect Emmy without putting her in danger (she's already in, but I don't want her to get deeper) is, I keep asking her to break up with David. That's the only way to save her from Laura.

But she never understand. Instead of listening to me, she got mad at me. And I understand. I'm being so silly for forcing her to break up without telling her the reason.

(Emily's POV : I shocked when I found out that Laura is just taking advantage of me to stay me away from David)

[ February 24th, 2024 ]

I can see our friendship is slowly starting to fade. I feel like she started to keep her distance from me and became more attached to that two-faced girl. Was she brainwashed by Laura? She mad at me. Now, she doesn't even trust me at all. Why is she so clumsy by trusting the wrong person again? I wondered.

I wish I could tell her the truth. Losing her was like losing half my life. How do I let go of someone that felt exactly like home? Nothing hurts more than when the person who made me feel so special yesterday, makes me feel so unwanted today.

I've tried my best to be her friend, I've tried so hard to protect her even it's secretly. And now I lost her? I know Laura is prettier and funnier than me but, after all we've been through and it's nothing? Am I not good enough for her?

She ever said to me that I was the one who treats her right but now she is the one who broke my heart. I'm all alone now drowning in my thoughts. I can't even sleep for 3 days because I overthink.

Yet, even so, I'm grateful. Because I'm not fooled by the world like everyone else. I don't get along with most people, because they just don't look at things the way I do.

Emily's POV :

After reading and knowing all the truth, I called David to pick me up. My body was weak and helpless and I couldn't walk home alone.

See? I knew it! That's all my fault. I supposed to trust her. How could I be so dumb in trusting Laura? I didn't even think Laura could be this evil.

"Me? Evil? Are you sure, Emily?"

I have a mini heart attack when I realized that Laura is right behind me with a gun in her hand points at me.

"I admit it I'm evil. But I'm not as evil as you, Em!" She yelled.

"What do you mean??" I replied.

"Remember 24? In March. Before she died, I came to her apartment and I saw her struggling with the noise in her head, and you as her best friend, weren't there for her. She was-"

"What were you doing in her apartment?" I cut her off before she finished her sentence.

"She was crying and no one even knows it. I've heard she wants to tell you everything about me. She was in front of her open window at that time, looking at the beautiful city"

"I said what the fuck were you doing in her apartment!?" I cut her off again because she keeps ignoring my question.

"Nevermind. I give you 2 options. You want to be the next one that I pushed or the first one that I shot?"

I'm shaking. I lost my mind. I realized that Emma died not because she committed suicide but because Laura pushed her.

Before Laura pulled the trigger, David came on time to save me. He called 911 immediately to arrest her.

The question Laura asked continues to haunt me. "Remember 24?" Remembering that Emma always wrote every 24th of the month and she ended up dying on the 24th too.

"Remember 24?"