Blood Falls Like Tears | Shigadabi

Part II | Nightmares Awakening

I walk over to where I killed my father and stick out my middle finger up at the exact spot he was when he died. (Mind) You were a real peace of shit.💭

I head back to the base and sit at the bar. "You want alcohol?" Kurogiri asks. "Yea.." I reply, not really wanting to speak. I take the bottle and go to my room, sitting at my desk and turning on a game. I drink 4 bottles, get myself drunk, and play Mario cart all night, staying up for a bit.

Sooner or later, I decided to go to bed, so I save and turn off the game, heading to my bed and laying down.

[NIGHTMARE]

Toga barges in, "Shigi? You have a visitor saying they're your father?" My eyes widen. I get up and push down my feelings of fright, sadness, and anxiety. I walk to the door and open it. I see my father standing in front of me shouting, "YOUR A WASTE OF LIFE!!" I fall backward and see my sister. "YOUR A MONSTER!..." She sobbed, yelling at me, "Why did you kill me!" I stand up and back up bumping into my mother. I turn around quickly. "It's all your fault! IF I WOULDN'T HAVE HAD YOU, I'D STILL BE ALIVE!!" My mother yells.

[END OF NIGHTMARE]

I wake up and curl into a ball on my bed, I start hyperventilating, sweating really bad, with tears running down my face. I have flashbacks of that night. The night they died...

[FLASHBACK]

My sister lied to my father, saying I stole the picture of grandma, Nana Shimura. Father believed her and beat me til I begged for him to stop, then called me a weak freak. I ran over and sat crying on a step. The steps led to the shed. There were only two steps. I started to cry, hugging my dog when suddenly his eyes got dark and lifeless. Seeing my dog disintegrate as soon as I touched him. I looked in front of me seeing my Sister terrified she ran and I panicked grabbing her and turning  her to dust, I cry more scared of myself, I look up seeing my father and mother, my father terrified and my mom worried but also scared as she tried to hug me running to me reaching for me... but as soon as I touched her, she turned to dust. I put my hand on the ground crying violently, and the ground broke apart. I looked up at my father, angry, sad, scared, and then full of rage, remembering every moment he hurt me, Mama, and my sister... then disintegrated him purposely, grabbing his face with all five fingers... watching the life fade from his eyes as he turns to a pile of dust and blood..

[End of Flashback]

I grab a blade from my pocket, having a panic attack. I decide to cope the only way I know how. I slit my wrists counting... "One... two... three... four... five... six... seven... eight..." til I lost count. My wrists were covered in blood. I stood up and went to the bathroom to wash off the blood. I carefully rubbed the wounds, cleaning them. I turn around, trying to find bandages only to see Dabi looking at me, then my arms. He didn't shout or tell anyone... he just grabbed the bandages, looking at me like he's done it himself before, and said, "Give me your arms." I gave him my arms, not wanting to fight or start an argument. He bandaged my arms, with a cold but somewhat sympathetic look, and told me, "I don't give a shit what you do. Just don't cut yourself..." then walked away, grabbing food, alcohol and heading back to his room. I headed back to my room and curled up in the corner of my bed, thinking about the nightmare I had. I stayed up the rest of the night listening and writing music.

In the morning at 9:00 a.m. I got out of my room to tell the League what the attack plan was, then finally took action at 10:00 a.m. Of course, the plan failed, and we lost. Again. "Agh! We almost won, but thanks to those little brats we didn't!" I complained. Dabi rolled his eyes, "It could be because you suck at planning things." Dabi says, smirking, knowing he's getting on my nerves. I narrow my eyes at him, then go to my room, slamming the door. I come back out after an hour of gaming. "Where are you going?" Kurogiri asks. "None of your business." I reply...

I'm now standing on what used to be the steps to the shed. I think of my mother and sister as a hint of anger at myself appears. "Why am I alive?..." Then I remember what my sister said... (Hana) "Just promise me even if I end up dying sooner than I want to, You'll be a hero!" I wipe my tear and look up at the destroyed ground. "... Tch.. what a joke..." I say walking away and thinking to myself, 'All I'll ever be is a fuck up.'

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