back then, 4 years ago, college life felt so.. scary..
uncertainties, growing up, future, worries, expectations.
what if nobody likes me, what if i have no friends, what if i have to face loneliness alone. those thoughts plagued my brain
every day,
every night,
never failed to keep me awake and i didn't know what i had to do.
until i learn to accept that,
"it's okay to be alone at college,
it's okay if i don't have any friends,
i will just focus on my studies and grades,
it only lasts 4 years"
so,
when fate allowed us— 11 random persons with 11 unique personalities, and 11 different backgrounds met on a warm september back in 2022, i couldn't help but wonder, "aren't they God's answer to my worries?"
uncertainties, growing up, future, worries, expectations.
now i don't have to face them alone.
we share cries, joys, laughter, tears, ups, and downs. i don't have to face those negative thoughts alone because now i have them to share my burdens.
sometimes it makes me wonder, "does friendship is enough to call this relationship?"
because they always feel like a home, a very warm home
they feel like a family, a one big family.
being away from them makes me wonder,
what if one day, we became distant?
what if one day, rusun only became a mere memory?
i always pray this one can last forever. i hope this one doesn't have any expired dates.
if possible, i want us to always be together, and have fun forever at amindana, jatos, odong, unpad. but i know we can't keep having fun as college students in that small region called jatinangor, because time keeps moving forward and we have 11 different dreams- our dreams and ambitions are too great to be wasted just like that.
so, separated miles away from each other, i hope our bonds will remain the same.
i'm still scared of the future because i do not know how it will unfold, but however my future will be, i hope all of them,
sasa
sopi
difa
bana
metta
abil
rance
via
kay
andin
are still there to laugh at my silliest jokes
but, even if one day we grew apart and have to grow up as different people from who we are today,
i know i will always remember them as the loveliest memories in my life,
i know i will always keep them close in the warmest place in my heart.
