I know it all I understand it form the start when I was a child is not because we're visiting it's because my father is abusive I know it but still denied it because he changed I know he did I watch him change.of course I know there not friends I saw it all I was there yet I still denied it ofcourse I know they don't love each other anymore I watch theme both cheat ofcourse I know but I want a complete family so I keep my mouth Shut but in the end what can I do I'm a child I want to be happy I want to be complete.yes it was all I lie I create for myself there's no chance I knew yet I kept it because I'm scared I was a child.I know it all yes,I understand it but I keep feeding my self lies ofcourse I know....but still I can't help but envy them I'm a child to why can't I have what they have am I not enough am I suppose to experience this because I was born why can't I have there happiness why do I have to experience this why me?why....?why do I have to grow up faster than others?I'm a child to why?do I deserve this I admit that I'm not pure but do I really deserve this.....?
