His Sweetness

Chapter 19

Isabel
I went to asleep last night feeling terrible.

How can Carter just wanna give up on us, after all i stuck by him when most women would have left. When
most would not have been bothered.

I expect the same in return.

I deserve that same respect.

And he should wanna give it to me, and not just for me.

But for our family.

The life we spent years on building, and he's ready to just throw it away.

Anyways i drag myself out of my room to check on Rain. Once i get to her room, she's still sleeping peacefully.

Thank god, i can get myself together before she wakes up. But first i need something to drink, my mouth feels so dry.

I go to the kitchen to find Carter sitting there eating some fruit.

"I was waiting for you to get up, always did like to sleep in". I can't tell if that was sarcasm or trying to be funny.

But i just ignore him and grab what i came in here for.

"Not gonna speak". Okay he wants to take it there, let's.

"Talk? You wanna talk? Okay, talk. Let's talk about how i'm just an easy push over that you can't be bothered with to fight for anymore. Let's talk about how im nothing to you, how your ready to let go of our family". He sat quiet as i finished.

"Ready to give up when i stayed by your side, after you lied to me, after you made the biggest mistake of your life and you didn't tell me". Tears stream down my face.

"I fucking love you Carter, but i don't know if you love me enough. Not if you're ready to just throw me away, like i mean nothing to you. So you wanna leave, leave. But don't ever question my love for you again like you did last night. Because if i didn't love you, i wouldn't have stayed. But it's nice to know how you feel about me, about what we made together. So leave, but you won't be taking my daughter with you". I grab my juice and hurry back upstairs to my room.

I slam the door and slide down it and let it go.

I can't believe this is my life. I had everything, a perfect relationship to not knowing if i even have one anymore.

This is the consequences of Carters action that took place years ago. If he would have just told me the truth we wouldn't be going through this.

And that's the one thing he doesn't understand. He did this, and made this mess of us. And his family just plays into it like it's a joke, but it's not. This is my life, the family is built and they are ruining it.

I want us to work, but if he won't fight for me, at least fight for our daughter. She deserves it.

"Isabel". Carter yells as he stands behind the door that divides us.

I just stay quiet wondering what he's gonna say.

If he really is just gonna leave, because if he is i rather him do it now and i rather not see his face as he does.

I guess it would hurt less.

"You're right". I'm right? But i'm never right to him.

"After you left last night i was pissed, pissed that you were with him instead of me. But you had every right to leave because i was a dick, i wasn't listening to your feelings and just worried about my own. The things i said were a lie. You're the only person i wanna be bothered with and you're 100% worth it to fight for. I love you and i wanna fight for this family, even if it means burning the bridges with my family. Because i want you. And i see that loosing you won't make me happy, and i wanna be happy, And if doing this will make you happy then i'll do it. I'll do it for you".

Tears stream down my face, out of joy that he wants to fight for our happiness. But the words he said last night still burn in my head, and they still hurt.

But if he's willing to try, then i will too.

And the only way to repair this, repair us is to face the truth.

I stand up and open the door.

"I didn't cheat on you with Atlas. Nothing happened and nothing ever will because i love you. Only you, and i need you to know that. You've got to stop being jealous, and focusing on the wrong things that don't matter. Because we have enough problems and he isn't one of them". I needed him to know that. What Atlas and i shared is nothing compared to me and Carter.

We have something different and that's okay.

It's obvious that Atlas still has feelings but I love Carter, and he is who i wanna be with. He's my person, and i believe im his.

"I know. I just can't stand the fact of you being around another man who clearly still wants you. But you're right, we have bigger problems at hand and i'm sorry. Sorry for everything". I give a slight smile and hug him.

He returns the hug and squeezes me.

"I forgive you. But no more lies. We do this together". Carter then released me and looked me straight in the eyes. I could see something in them that i've never seen before.

Fear.

"When we do this, there's no going back. And you must be ready to deal with the consequences and sacrifices that come with it. My family is no one to play with, and i'm going against them. When things get bad i don't want you in the crossfire. So we do this my way Isabel, and i'm serious. You don't know what you're getting into so no playing games. Understood".

This was the first time i saw fear in him. The first time he was genuinely worried like this could turn really bad.

So the real question is, who really is his family?

And are they not who they claim to be?

What are they hiding? Guess we'll find out, won't we?

"Understood". I reply to him even though i am now freighted at what we're doing, i know it's for the best.

In the long run, this will work. This will be for our future, our marriage, and our daughter.

The truth will always be set free, whether it's good or bad it's needed to move on. To have the future you want. The future you decide.

I just hope nothing bad happens. I mean what's the worst that could truly happen?

All we're doing is telling Carters 1st daughter the truth, it cannot be as bad as he's making it out to be. His parents will be mad, but who cares. They will get over themselves.

I don't know why they care that much anyways, it is not their kid.

So the real question is why do they care? And why would it affect them so much?

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