shinkami/monokami/monoshinkami oneshots

shinkami angst monokami, i really fucked it up this time

This is either going to be over punctuated or overly under punctuated

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3rd person pov

Denki Kaminari has always confidence issues every since he can remember, whether it's him thinking he's not pretty enough, that he talks to much, and is annoying, or just that he'll never be enough

He also had adhd which made it so much worse, he always tried to stay quiet and not talk so much. But most times he couldn't help it especially when he was off his adhd meds. Hitoshi (did I spell that right?) Shinsou, kaminaris boyfriend always tried his best to help kami (I will loose my my mind if I spell kaminari out 1 more time) get more comfortable and feel better, by doing things like complimenting him, telling him it's gonna be okay when he's struggling, telling him it's okay to rant to him when he feels like it, all together just encouraging kami to be himself and beagle to come talk to shinsou whenever.

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Kaminari pov

I was hanging out with my boyfriend shinsou since I was out of my adhd medicine, I didn't like risking annoying him but he's always gone out of his way to make me feel like I could talk to him, so I do. Me and him were just sitting on the couch talking when, "okay so me and the bakusquad, sero was rolling a joint, and jiro-" "OH MY GOD KAMI CAN YOU PLS SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOUVE BEEM ON AND ON ALL DAY, ITS SO FUCKING ANNOYING, CANT YOU JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP ALREADY". I look down as he yells my eyes starting to water, I've always hated yelling, my parents used to always yell at each other when I was younger. "Sorry shinsou I'll just leave then if I'm that much of a nuisance" I say as I walk out with tears streaming down my face

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Shinsou pov

I've had a really bad I got even less sleep then normal last night, only have gotten 30 minutes, woke up at 6am, one of my cats was sick, I felt like shit. Denki came over around 10 to hang out with me since he was out of his adhd medicine and his other freinds had already left to the mall without him. All morning he was talking about the most random things, and it eventually just got to me, ticking me off the wrong way and rather then explaining to him what happened or asking him to be quiet, I yelled even tho I know he hates yelling, OH MY GOD KAMI CAN YOU PLS SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOUVE BEEM ON AND ON ALL DAY, ITS SO FUCKING ANNOYING, CANT YOU JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP ALREADY". I screamed out, not realizing what I said in time, I quickly cover my mouth and look over at kami realizing what I said he had tears streaming down his face, "wait-" "Sorry shinsou I'll just leave then if I'm that much of a nuisance" denki said as he walk out the door, "no denki I'm sorry" i said as I slid against the wall, breaking down crying, at that point I realized I really fucked it up this time.

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Kaminari pov
Once I got out the door, I ran and ran, eventual I made it outside and stopped and paused before sliding down the wall, breaking down "im so fucking useless, I can't even keep from annoying my own boyfriend" I say to myself as I sob. I cry for what feels like hours but is actually just a few minutes before my sobs calm down to slient crys, "hey, are you okay" I hear a voice say to me, after a second I recognize the voice as monoma. "I'm fine" I say mumble out only to be interrupted as another sob racks my body, I can feel monoma kneel down next to me. He slowly hugs me tho I can feel the hesitation. I lean into his chest breaking down in sobs again, "sorry" "it's fine sparky"