DREAMS

SHADOW

After so many times, when she wanted to fix everything, every misunderstanding.

 everything ruined. 

On 7th April 2023 at 10.00 a.m. she woke up from bed early and hadn't slept at night. weather was not so good but warm. 

She went to her friend Sara's home to talk with him, she saw him but did not reply. then sometimes later one message came from there. in the Indonesian language

 -" Who are you? "

" WE DON'T KNOW YOU!" 

 She was very surprised and asked what happened to him. everything was blurred to her. She waited and then a few minutes later a reply came, "Sorry sehra, it wasn't me.

 my brother was scrolling my phone, he had texted you over like this. please don't mind."

"what? Are you kidding? huh! what your brother doing with your phone, 

not just why you've changed the account passwords that you've given me it's clear that you've changed it."

"Listen please, I can declare those things. sera nothing like that." sehra sends a voice message

- " stop now, I do not need to listen to anything.

 forgive me, I just became much available it's becoming like I'm the one who is just on a side relationship here."

 - nothing like that. please try to understand me sehra.

 DOUBT AND FAITH ARE TWO THINGS THAT APPEAR IN EVERY RELATIONSHIP BUT WHEN IT'S BROKEN IT'S BROKEN FOR A WHOLE LIFE, IT CAN'T BE FIXED, AND THAT'S HOW PEOPLE STOP THINKING AND LOSE THEIR FAITH IN EVERYONE SO FAST.

3 hours after......

- are you okay?

- yes, I am. what else do you need to tell?

- sehra, why are you talking with me like that?

- how am I talking with you? And how do you want me to talk to you like? 

I said forgive me I always keep giving you too much advice, leave me dude you will be alright.

- forgive you? you didn't do anything wrong.

 Do you want to end all the things between us?

- huh. stop now. all the time whatever are you doing what do you think after knowing all of those things who will stay with you? 

no one. but still, I stayed and still dream of you cause I love you and you making so many issues one by one that I'm losing my faith in you.

 you making me lose up Joey.

2 days later...... 10th April 2023.

 - Forgive me. please ! I was too much rude to you. Do you want to see a video that I made for you?

- I'm sorry. please forgive me sehra. whatever I did.

- It's OK. I have forgiven you. I need to understand that you are all alone there now you don't have your job and your friends with you. wait for 5 pm ok? 

we will talk again.

- all right. bye.a few moments later......

at 5.00 pm ,,

-Joey? are you there?

- Don't disturb my boyfreind again. i warn you this time. 

- wait. what? stop joking now.

- joking? you didn't understand my words. Don't text him or I'll block you now.

- Who are you? listen, I want to talk with him for just once ma'am?

- He can't talk. he is sleeping here. If you try again to talk with him, I'll show you what am I. A FEW DAYS ARE GONE. SEHRA BECAME LIKE MAD. A GIRL? 

WHAT WAS SHE DOING WITH HIS PHONE AT 1.00 A.M.? SHE JUST BECAME LIKE MAD. WHO SHE WAS WITH THEN? BETRAY? AGAIN? SHE DIDN'T FIND ANY ANSWERS.

11th April 2023

from an unknown account ...

- Sehra, I want to talk with you, please.

- What else now? [ crying loudly]

- Listen, sehra I think our relationship ends here. I will get engaged after this Eid-ul-Fitr. sorry, I was the one who started all these things. please forgive me. I am so lonely and alone here. I fear that one day if you get to a good position and if you leave me then what I will do? 

Your study and family are in a higher position than mine. they won't accept us being with each other. I make you happy just for a few moments all the time I was a burden to you. please forgive me. I will say goodbye and ASSALAMU ALAIKUM.

- Why you lied to me? what was my fault? I told you I would accept you however you are then why? I was broken. I told you to think one more time before you told me that you love me. I TOLD EVERYONE ABOUT YOU HERE WHAT I WILL TELL TO THEM? WHAT I WILL DO? YOU KNEW EVERYTHING WHY YOU CHEATED ON ME? BETRAY AGAIN?

 just 6-7 months gone and now your truth is revealed. And now you ask for forgiveness?- I had 4 years when I got that panic from the person I loved but, I wasn't in a relationship ever in my 19 years of life but you. you broke me up again my whole life I trusted you most I left a good relationship with my family and now you left me up. I won't forgive you if almighty have forgiven you I won't. 

For you, I swearing today that if I don't get married whoever will try to enter my life will be refused, and all their cursing will destroy you.

- Please forgive me, listen this affair can't be going further sehra and you will definitely meet a person and surely get married always have been like that I know. I faced them before. 

if you need any solution, I will tell you to study and become a lawyer keep chasing your goal, you are charming and good-looking. you deserve better than me. I'm not the perfect man for you. goodbye.

Everything ended like this. just a few months was enough to destroy a person. Sehra became mad, who was she then? everything has changed. Now, 7 years have passed away. In the morning it's raining. I was having my coffee and reading newspapers, suddenly a loud sound from thunder.

 I got scared but sometimes later I walked to my window to see the whole environment and was enjoying it. The phone started to ring.

 I felt annoyed but I picked up the call and asked, "Who is there?".

 A voice came after it, " How are you? Mrs. Anu. 

" I replied, "Yes, I'm ok. Can I get to know Who you are? please."

 "Ohh, don't you recognize me? ma'am?"

 I exclaimed and asked her," Who are you? Sehra?" 

" You've recognized right maam... it's me,[sighs]

  At least I'm able to contact you, ma'am. I'm feeling glad to talk with you." [sobbing  deeply]

"How are you now Sehra? How's everything now?"

 "Ohh yes, I really needed that, to make my burden lower." Sehra sighs in a deep voice.