𝒯𝒽ℯ 𝒱𝒾𝒸𝓉𝒾𝓂 ℴ𝒻 𝒢𝓊𝓃𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒦𝓃𝒾𝒻ℯ𝓈 | 𝐀 𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐒𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲

9.

TW:topics of being used, talk of killing, homophobia, rape, death

                              Minhos pov

I was busy in a meeting for the morning and wasn't able to greet Jisung hello.  In the early afternoon I get out of my meeting and get back to the house. 

I meet Changbin and Jeongin in the dining room doing some computer work.  I set my laptop down and sit next to them.  "Have you guys seen Jisung?"  I look around wondering if he's downstairs yet.  They look at each other then look at me, Jeongin speaks up, "We found him looking for you earlier.  We uh.. talked to him.. and he ran to the room I think." 

I nod and walk away towards to room.  I knock lightly on the door before entering.  I look forward to see Jisung laying in the bed asleep.  I smile and walk to him quietly so I don't wake him.  He's not under the covers but he's curled up in a ball, like he's cold.  I move the hair from his eyes so I can see his face better.  That's when I notice..

His face is dried with tears. 

My mind flashes back to last time..

-"Minho!! He's not breathing.."-

My eyes get watery and my heart beats faster even though he seems to be breathing perfectly fine.  "Jisungah~".

My voice is shaky and anyone could notice that I'm going to cry any second now.  "Jisungah!" I frantically shake him awake.

Finally he jolts awake and I move back away from him and turn around wiping my eyes so he doesn't see that tears that were falling.

"Minho?" He says groggily.  I turn around now with a straight face.  "Yes, it's me.  Now wake up we have to leave for the event in an hour."  I steady my voice the best I can so he doesn't realize I was crying.  For him.

He gets up and I lead him to the bathroom, helping him get ready since he was tired.  "Why'd you sleep so late?  It's not healthy Jisung."  He looks up at me, at first, innocently,  but then his eyes change and he looks mad.

He flicks my hand away from doing his hair and crosses his arms.  "I can get ready by myself!" He says angrily.  I look at him confused, "do you not like the hair? I can change it."  He looks at me again, "No!! Just leave it alone!! Get out I don't want your help!!"  My eyes widen at his behavior and wonder if he didn't like the side of the bed he woke up on.  "Don't talk to me like that. I will help you, and you will deal with it.  Do you understand me?"  He looks at me and rolls his eyes,  I stand there shocked at him, "why are you acting like this?!"

He turns to me and yells, "DO YOU REALLY CARE ABOUT ME?!"

Tears are forming in his eyes and his lip is quivering.  He struggling to hold in his emotions.

"W-what're you talking about?"  I look at him confused.  I try grabbing his hands to hold in mine but he just backs away.  Now he's crying.

"Y-YOU.. CHANGBIN! HE HE SAID T-THAT YOU- YOU DIDNT C-CARE ABOUT ME..! H-HE SAID T-THAT J-JUST B-B-BECAUSE WE SLEPT TOGETHER.. D-DOESNT MEAN YOU CARE A-ABOUT ME!"  His stuttering is taking up most of his sentence and he's yelling at me to try and let out the pain he seems to feel right now.

"No no no no no! Jisung i- I do!"  I'm caught in a tricky situation.  My feelings aren't clear for him and I definitely can't care about him.  So what do I do? 

"SAY IT!! SAY THE FULL SENTENCE!! SAY YOU CARE ABOUT ME!! PLEASE MINHO SAY YOU DO!" He's now bawling. A new tear rolling down his precious face every millisecond. His eyes are red and looking tired with eye bags under them. Something I didn't notice last night..