The Little Girl's Bucket List

Something Hidden

Chapter 1; Something Hidden

"Natalia! You ready to go?" My mom yelled from downstairs.

"Yeah!" I yelled back and quickly put the notebook back inside Briana's old nightstand. I quickly whiped the single tear running down my cheek and grabbed my bag.

"You alright, honey?" My mom asked when I came down the stairs.

"Yeah, mom. Im fine." I said bluntly.

She put her hand on my back. "You sure?"

"Yes mom, im fine okay?" I said and jerked her hand off my back.

She took a deep breathe and we headed out of the door.

Ever since Briana and my dad died in that car accident; something about me changed. I knew my mom noticed it to. I felt like I had nothing to live for anymore, but I new I had to live...for Bri's sake. I used to be this inoccent 15 year old girl, and now I talk back to anyone thats annoys me. I used to get straight A's and now Im almost failing every class. I even got suspended last week for throwing some books across a classroom.

There is so much anger inside me, I let it out in small portions at a time, but after a while I let a lot of it out at once...and everything gets out of control. Thats why im on my way to anger managment.

"So how are you feeling today?"

I looked down and played with the tear in my jeans.

"If you dont talk,Natalia, then I cant help you." My shrink said.

"I know."

"Good, then speak to me."

I looked up and him. "Its not my fault that I have anger issues!" I screamed.

"Then whos fault is it?" He said calmly.

"Its the bumd ass driver that killed my sister and father!"

He handed me a tissue. "Its okay Natalia, its normal to think that."

I whiped my cheeks then looked up at him. "Think that! I know thats why, I used to be so happy and outgoing when my sister was alive. And now look at me! I..im a mess." I sobed.

This times he handed me the whole tissue box. "I understand, but there is no need to take it out on other people."

I blew my nose quickly. "I dont mean to, I feel like im holding in all the time...but then I just end up taking out on everybody. Its like it wont stop."

I nodded and wrote something down on his stupid little notepad. I hated that damn thing. "Go on.."

"I feel like I cant control weather it comes out or not. It just does."

"Now, can you tell me exaclty what your angry about?" He asked.

I took a deep breathe. "Im mad my sister died. Im mad that the driver killed both her and my father. Im mad that I had to go through my little sister dying before me. And Im mad because I was supposed to go in that car ride with my dad."

He looked at me in confusion. "What do you mean?"

"My dad asked me if I wanted to go to the grocery store with him. And all I did was roll my eyes and simply told him no. Then Briana offered to go. If I had gone, she would be here right now."

He shook his head. "Dont think its your fault, everything happens for a reason. You cant blame this on yourself."

"Of course I can! It is my fault that I didnt just go with my dad! It is my fault that they are both dead! And it is my fault that my family is completely fallen apart!" I screamed and stormed out of the room.
I ran through the lobby and outside where I tripped on the sidewalk and I fell. I skidded my knees and my head hit the concrete, hard. But, I didnt bother getting up. I lay there with my hand on my head, so frustrated with myself. I couldnt stop thinking about that day, the day my mom got the phone call.

*1 month ago*

"Mom, where is dad and Briana?" I asked my mom while filling my empty glass with milk.

"Im sure they will be here soon, just be ready to help unload the car." My mom said sorting through some mail.

Sunddenly the phone rang. "Hello?" I answered cheerfully.

A deep man's voice comes across the phone asking for my mother. I hand it over and take a sip of my milk.

"Hello?" I hear her say.

I walk out of the kitchen and sit down on the couch. I take the remote next to me and turn on the tv.

Then I heard my mom break into tears and almost collapse to the floor. I ran over and helped her get steady.

"Mom, are you okay?"

She shook her head with a great amount of tears rolling down her cheeks. "No." She sobbed.

"Whats wrong mom?" I asked worried.

"No! No! No!." She screamed and dropped the phone. "Why!!"

I pulled her into a hug and thats when she whispered in my ear, "They are gone, they are both gone."

*Present Time*

"Honey your head is bleeding!" My mom cried.

I touched the back of my head and when I brought it up to my face it was covered in blood. Then, I fainted.

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When I woke up I was in my living room with a warm blanket around me.

"Good morning sleep head."

I looked around, that voice sounded so familiar.

"Over here silly goose." It spoke again.

Then I recognized it. "Briana?!" I said and looked next to me.

"Hey sis, what happened to you?" She said looking straight at me.

"Just a little fall, thats all."

She shook her head. "You gotta be more careful." She laughed.

I was so happy to hear her vioce again, but I knew it was just a dream. "What are you doing here?"

She smiled at me. "I came to tell you that the accident wasnt your fault."

"Wh..what?"

"It had nothing to do with you Natalia. It wasnt your fault that car hit us head on. It was dads."

"No Bri, it was the other driver." I looked at her sternly.

She smiled and stroked my hair. "It was snowing pretty hard, and well dad lost sight of the road. I remeber laughing because he was making a joke about how he hated the winter so much. Then we saw these bright lights and we both screamed. But I heard dad say 'Im sorry'. It wasnt your fault and it wasnt mine. Things just happen. And I forgave him."

"How could you forgive him Briana? He killed both of you."

"Sometimes you just have to let things go. We are fine, trust me. Now all I need you to do it trust me."

I nodded and she kissed my cheek. "I do trust you Bri."

She smiled and stood up, then..she vanished.