I'd Never Tell (boyxboy)

Chapter One

Kevin's POV
I reached up and wiped away the sweat that had collected on my forehead and sighed in satisfaction. It took almost a week to get everything prepared but we finally had the concrete base for a new house. "Finally time to clock out." I muttered as I tossed my tools in my truck and walked to the office trailer to clock out and head home. As I was driving back to my house, amazingly enough my dad was the one to move out when I turned eighteen and he just gave me the house, I passed by Ed and Eddy's pawn shop right as Jimmy and Sarah walked out hugging and kissing each other on the sidewalk. I smirked switched on my stereo, and cranked the volume up a bit. I had one of my mix CD's in the CD player and felt a pull on my heart when a song began playing. "I just cant escape its like you're here with me now. But the words you say, they always seem to fade out. Since you been away, I'm just a face in the crowd. Someday, someday I know you're coming back down.." I felt my heart crack as the song continued. All I could think about was him, and how bad it hurt when he left, even if we weren't together... even if he didn't know how I felt, it hurt. I turned my truck into an ally-way, since I usually parked my truck behind my house and as I slowed down I glanced out of my passenger window at Nazz and Rolf in their backyard with their kids and grinned. Nazz was the first and only girl I'd ever been with, and now she's my closest friend. Almost like a sister at this point... She'd even helped me come out to my dad on my eighteenth birthday. Unfortunately, the only man I wanted moved before I had the chance to tell him how I felt. Nazz was the only one who knew who he was. Nazz and I broke up when I told her but she was beyond cool with it. A year later she started dating Rolf and not even a year after graduation they were married. I pulled up behind my house and cut the engine to my truck. When I stepped out, Nazz walked up to the fence with her blue haired son propped up on her hip. "Hey Kev! How was work?" I smiled and shrugged as I pulled my lunchbox out from the backseat of my truck. "It was good. We finally finished the concrete for the base of the house so next week we start building."

"Rad! You excited?" I shrugged. "I guess so. Its not exactly something I'm not used to." Nazz chuckled just as Rolf walked up beside her and wrapped an arm around her waist. "Greetings Keven!"

"Hey Rolf. How've you been?" Rolf grinned in his familiar way, causing me to grin back in return. "Busy. The son of a shepherd never sleeps!"

"Aren't the twins starting kindergarten soon?" I asked reaching my hand across the fence to Jansen, Nazz and Rolf's son. "August. And they're so excited." She kissed Jansen's hair and we parted ways, with Nazz shouting a dinner invite over her shoulder to me. I walked in through my back door and set my lunchbox on the kitchen counter, then went out my front door to check the mail. I glanced across the street as I flipped through the mail and saw a thin woman across the street, clumsily carrying two armfuls of grocery bags into Double D's old house. I set the mail back in my mail box and ran across the street to help her. "Hey! Need a hand?" I asked as I began taking bags from her arms and nearly fell over when I looked up into a set of familiar blue eyes. "Thank you so much. I was never going to make it to the door on my own." Okay, so this wasn't a skinny girl. It was a skinny guy, in tight purple skinny jeans, a red Sleeping With Sirens t-shirt, chin length black hair and that signature black beanie with the two white stripes on the sides. It felt like my heart started beating again for the first time in almost five years. "Double D?" I asked, my eyes wide and my mouth slightly ajar. The guy smiled his familiar wide, gap toothed grin and laughed. "Salutations Kevin!"

"So what are you doing back at the cul-de-sac?" I asked as we began putting away the groceries I'd helped him carry in. He smiled sadly and sighed. He had a very feminine feel to him now... Not like in high school. "Unfortunately, it's not a happy occasion that brings me here Kevin. My mother is ill and alone. I talked to her doctors over the phone and they gave her a few more weeks. I just didn't want her to be alone in her final days." His voice fell to just above a whisper and his smile faltered. It's hard to believe that this shaggy haired, emo- nerd is the same bright eyed nerd I fell for in high school. I placed a hand on his shoulder and gently shook it reassuringly. "I'm sorry to hear that Double D." He sniffled and smiled weakly. "It's no problem Kevin. Although, it is nice to finally have someone to talk to. I tried getting together with Ed and Eddy, but they're too busy at the pawn shop and with May and Lee." He turned and stretched up on his toes to put a box of cereal on the top shelf in a cabinet. I smirked when he was unable to reach and stepped behind him, my chest brushed against his back as I grabbed the box from his hand and placed it on the shelf, and when I glanced back down at Double D, his cheeks were turning pink. "Thank you, Kevin..." I felt my heart slamming against my ribs as I looked down at him. "No problem... Double Dork.." I smirked slightly and he giggled nervously. "Good Lord... I haven't been called that in years." The corner of my mouth twitched. "Consider it a personal nickname." Maybe I should tell him... I've been holding it in for nearly five years. Maybe it's finally time. Just as I was about to lean in close I heard music coming from his pocket. "I've got my hands up! Yeah, yea. I'm staring down the barrel of a loaded night! I've got my hands up! Yeah, yeah. So do you want me? Or do you want me dead?!" He quickly stepped away from my and pulled his phone from his front pocket, pressed the green 'call' button and held the phone to his ear. "Hey Andie." Andy? I felt a small bubble of jealousy expand in the pit of my stomach but I swallowed it down to avoid making a rash decision I'd regret. "What do you mean?... You're kidding! When did you do that?... Well when will you be here?" As if on cue we both turned to face the door when the doorbell sounded off. Double D walked past me to answer it and I turned to keep putting groceries away until I heard a girls voice from the front room. I walked out to see Double D in a tight hug with an attractive redhead in tight black jeans and a leather jacket. "Andie, I thought you were heading back home to Seattle. What are you doing in Peach Creek?"

"I heard the voicemail your mom left on your cell right before you left. You really think I'd leave my bestie to care for his mom alone? Hell no!" I saw Double D grin as he picked up her guitar case and began to carry it to the stairs. Her gaze flicked to me just as I tore my gaze from Double D and I saw her lips turn up in the corners as she followed Double D to the stairs. "I'll take your things up to the spare room. You're staying here, no questions. No friend of mine is staying in some germ infested hotel."

"Awe, thanks Beanie Boy." Double D nodded once and took her bags up to the spare room and she spun on her heel and peeled her jacket off. She stepped into the kitchen and I walked in behind her, analyzing and categorizing her every move and motion. She opened the fridge and pulled out a bottle of soda, closed the fridge door and placed the cap of the bottle in her teeth, bit down and jerked the bottle upward, dislodging the cap with a hiss of air and spitting it into the trashcan. She took a long drink from the bottle and sighed with content, her eyes never leaving mine. So... Double D is straight after all... I turned my back for a split second to fold all the reusable grocery bags and put them all in one bag and she spoke. "You like my friend don't you?" I froze and swallowed the lump that began to form in my throat. "Why do you care?" I snapped and I could almost hear her condescending smirk. "Because even though I may not be a mind reader, your eyes know no secrecy." I turned to face her and her green eyes radiated protectiveness over Double D, and suspicion of me and my feelings for him. "You care about Double D. I can tell you have for a while too. And I'm going to tell you something that he'd never forgive me for if he knew I was the one to tell you. He's fragile. Ever since that cock-muncher, Marcus broke his heart, he hasn't been the same. So unless you plan to fix that and keep him happy,-"In three strides she crossed that kitchen was was eye to eye with me. "-stay away from my friend." I fought the urge to smirk when she crossed her arms over her chest and stared me down. If this girl really was Double D's closest friend now, then he couldn't have picked a better friend. I could tell just by how her eyes turned to stone when she told me to stay away from him if I planned on hurting him. I squared my shoulders and stared down at her, matching if not exceeding her level of intimidation. "And I'm going to tell you something that only one other person in this town knows. I've been in love with Double D since I was seventeen. He's actually the reason I found out I was gay. I was going to tell him how I felt, but by the time I was ready to, he was long gone. No one has missed him as much as I have. Not even the two guys that actually were his friends in school. So I can promise you this. If I do ever happen to win him over, I'll crush anyone who tries to hurt him. And I never will hurt him. But please don't say anything to him. I want to be the one to tell him how I feel." Her bright eyes narrowed and she stared me down for a few moments, before a wide grin spread across her face and she slung her arm across my shoulders. "I'd never tell. And I like you, Gingersnap. I think we'll get along great."

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Alright guys! Chapter One of my first KevEdd fanfiction is now up and readable! Let me know what you all think and don't forget to vote if you like it! And the picture above is how I personally see Double D and Kevin in this story, only with different clothing.

Songs mentioned in this chapter:

Coming Back Down- Hollywood Undead

Do You Want Me (Dead)?- All Time Low