All that's left behind

three

I've realized something.

I'm never anyone's first choice.

There's always a sibling, boyfriend, girlfriend, crush, or another best friend that people want to be around more than they want to be around me.

I try to tell myself that it's fine, that I don't need them, that it shouldn't bother me.

Those are lies.

As much as I hate to admit it, I need to be around people. I need extremely close friends. I need to be able to trust them with my life, and I have those friends. It's just hard to stay smiling when there's always someone that they want to be around more than you.

It's not their fault, of course. I'm not blaming them in any way.

It just hurts.

I could understand if I was picked last for a game of dodgeball or soccer.

But in the game of life.....