I AM NOT GONNA HIDE

Headaches,Fear,& a plan

I opened my eyes to the sunlight when I felt my head start pounding.
"Ughhhhh I won't ever drink again"i told myself knowing it was probably not gonna happen.
"Good morning Abby how did you sleep?"i heard someone say so I turned round to see....
"What are you doing in my bed Winter?" I asked her
"Well so far all I know is after the dare you got drunk.Then,started dancing with Jay then you started singing a song dedicated to Jay "hothouse" by 78violet.then you left to your room when I found the key to your room I came in here to find tear streaks down your cheeks.thats all I know.Do you remember anything from last night?"she said
"Umm.."i said as I thought back to everything she said and tried to remember last night
"I remember dancing then....kissing Jay then telling him I liked him OMG his face after I finished singing is the reason I cried because ....because..."then I started crying again.
"I am afraid winter what if he leaves me? like how my parents did they died and left me scarred as a child .what if he hates me now?...what if he doesn't like me?what if---"
"Abby these are all what ifs he might understand if you explain to him about it and talk to him about it.okay??"
"Okay...OMGRAPES I HAVE IT...I HAVE A PLAN WHICH I NEED HELP WITH BECAUSE YOU AND BECKY ARE MY SISTER FROM A DIFFERENT MISTER,BEST FRIEND FOR LIFE,THE FRIENDS WHO ARE BEST AT UNDERSTANDING ME,AND THATS WHY YOU GUYS ARE IN MY PLAN OK SO WHO IS IN the pla----"I started
"Shut up I'm trying to sleep idiots....i will be in the plan just let me sleep..."i heard Becky say from her room "i don't even know why I hang out with these dweebs any more.."
"Because we love you"i heard Winter say at the same time I said
"Because of the free food"she looked at me I looked at her..."hahahahahaha"we bursted out cracking laughing.

"Ok okay ..so here's that plan...."i told winter who said she would tell Becky later
2 hours later

It was 10:30 am.Jay was in history class right now."you ready Abby?"
"No I'm not I need more time ....I can't do this"i started babbling but Becky already knew not to listen to me.she turned on the microphone that everyone could hear from the speakers in every classroom.
"Hey this Abby I am sorry Jay if I offended you last night but i hope u can forgive me and give me another chance.i dedicate this song to you."I said before I took a deep breath and Becky started playing the music
"I like being independent
Not so much of an investment
No one to tell me what to do
I like being by myself
Don't gotta entertain anybody else
No one to answer to...

But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when it's cold
Got that young love even when we're old
Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end

So if you're out there I swear to be good to you
But I'm done lookin', for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You'll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song
Ooo-OhOh

I don't really like big crowds
I tend to shut people out
I like my space, yeah
But I'd love to have a soulmate
And God'll give him to me someday
And I know it'll be worth the wait, oh

So if your out there I swear to be good to you
But I'm done lookin' (But I'm done lookin'), for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You'll be here, but for now
Dear no one (Dear nobody) this is your love song (Ooo-Oooh)

Sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when it's cold
Got that young love even when we're old
Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end

So if you're out there I swear to be good to you
But I'm done lookin' (I'm done lookin'), for my future someone (Ooo-Yeah)
Cause when the time is right
You'll be here, but for now
Dear no one (Dear Nobody) this is your love song (This is your love song)
Dear no one, no need to be searchin', no
Dear no one...
Dear no one...
Dear No one, this is your love song"i finished off singing
"Jay I know there is a slim chance you would like me but will you be the one to hold me,give me the jacket when it's cold,and have the young love when we are old ,and grab my hand and pull me close.if so will you be my boyfriend---"I started saying when the door opened loudly
"I would love too."he said then pulled me by the hand and kissed me I kissed back."umm no offense but I think u should turn off the mic so the whole school doesn't here you guys kissing."becky said awkwardly and uncomfortably
"Ohh right "I said turning red I turned it off.
"now where were we "I said before we started kissing more
"We should probably get out of here before we get in trouble huh?"Jay asked
"Probably but I want to keep kissing you,and I'm sorry about last night I was drunk and afraid that you would hurt me so I stupidly sang that song..."i told him sorrowfully
"It's okay babe and I won't hurt you if I did I wouldn't forgive myself for it"he said looking into my eyes
"Come on "he said
"Where we going??"i asked
"To a special place that I have never showed to anyone"he said smiling at me
"Umm. okay"i told him

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The end of the chapter... I know this chapter was kind of cliche....but life is cliche just in different ways...and the things that seem to be aren't always as they come to be seen in the end...please vote and comment hope u liked the chapter....You should also definitely check out 'Dear No One' by Tori Kelly
The song Abby sang...okay gtg love you guys bye😘😘