GRADE 9 GIRLS X LIFE!

BIG VENT

You as a reader are probably wondering what is this teenage girl gonna take about today well it is how i am struggling with the battle of the unfortunate subject of guys. I have this one guy friend who i click with sometimes and this guy who i click with a lot but i have heard bad rumors about him. The guy who i am sometimes click with his name is Riley he will talk to me and act like he cares but the next week he will be cold and distant from me but yet i somehow still feel a sense of love and desire from him. The other guy name is Wonai who is such a sweet guy who came up to me and rambled about anime (i love anime) and i was so happy and i even found out he liked me but then i heard that he swear and is very dirty. As a Christian i shouldn't date someone like that. You readers would be like date Riley hm yes but one of my closet friends have a crush on him and even though i know for a fact that it will never work out i don't say anything. I don't mean that in a rude way but it is the unfortunate truth i have tired on multiple occasion to get them to talk but it never works out. The bets part is that yes i would love to date either one of these guys but i have never had a boyfriend and i am not prepared to have my first boyfriend. All my friend say i like Wonai because of his personality but to be fair yes he may be shorter than me but his smile makes me melt inside and every time his eyes meet mine it makes me feel so special. On the other hand my friends would say that Riley is the more attractive one he is tall tan skin and is popular but a nerd at the same time which confuses me. Wonai is just popular. What i think is funny is how they are both new to school well newish and i have been at the school since primary and they are more popular than me. Funny how high school works. Next year will be Year 10 so that mean i am like a senior level which kind of scares me and yeah. I am not popular i am probably more on the nerdy side of the school. I mean don't get me wrong people know me in my school but they wouldn't willingly hang out with me. I feel very lost and stressed with the pressure of getting a boyfriend. The other factor is that i am Christian but my family isn't just me which means i pray in my room before sleep in secret because my family thinks its a whole bunch of nonces. fun right. I love how girls my age are doing drugs getting pregnant and my family is worried about the fact that there daughter is Christian . don't you love how life works.  The best part about riley though is that he uses me (i think) because last year he wanted to join a club i do he wanted to do it for a while so i helped him get into it and after he got in he didn't talk to me, this has happened on many other occasions. But with Wonai he doesn't do that he is sweet and when i ramble about things i am passionate about he doesn't tell me to shut up or be rude to me which makes me feel so much better about myself. The only problem with Wonai is that everyone says he swears alot and he has like a dirty mind and say dirty gross stuff. so yeah don't really want someone like that but i don't want to judge until i find out more so i am going to talk to him more. The biggest connection happened the other day because at the club i go to with riley i was talking to him about Wonai and my friends had told me how he liked me and how he did silly stuff in class like putting my name as his username for bloke (i have no clue why i actually believed that) and riley said that he sat next Wonai in class and that didn't happen. So yeah felt bit stupid after that and the worse part i gave Wonai my number because my friends said he wanted my number. it has been almost a week still no message. yippy.....See people this is why teenage girls have trust issues when crap like this happens to us like be for real who wouldn't have trust issues.  THE END!

SORRY GUYS U PROBS THOUGHT THIS WAS GONNA BE A STORY BUT IT WAS KIND OF A VENT SEESSION FOR ME SORRY HAVE A GREAT REST OF UR DAY! 😊